Thursday, October 13, 2005
hello people.
i recently read a book. i liked this quote from it:
had I but known yesterday
what I know today
i'd have taken out
your two gray eyes
and put in eyes of clay and
had I known but yesterday
you'd be no more my own
I'd have taken out
your heart of flesh
and put one of stone.
hmmmm. yeah, i know. sounds a tad bit morbid eh? menacing. when i first read it, i got the shivers too. who would ever do that? haha. esp when it comes to taking out gray eyes. i only think of my beloved Gerrard and how i'd never ever do that to him. ;)
but. ya know. had i but known.. i would have wanted to do the same thing. no, i don't mean taking out someone's eyes and bloody, creepy stuff like that. i mean, i would have wanted revenge. i would have wanted justice. i would have wanted punishment. i would have wanted and wished deperately for sth tangible. sth to cause as much pain; akin to what i went through and suffered.
sometimes, you just get so pissed. and there's this anger boiling up inside that you wouldn't even have suspect existed. you think, what the hell, why are you thinking this way? why do you even bother? when you know it's no use?
sigh. then. you look around you. you notice the smiles, the laughs of your friends. their presence. the part that they play in your life. you notice..
and you think. maybe it's just time to let go.
and you know what the funny thing is? time doesn't ease the pain. it never will. but with time, you can finally learn to forgive.
another summer day. is come and gone away. in Paris and Rome.
But i wanna go home. dammit. i wanna go home too.
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9:22 PM 
