Friday, February 23, 2007
starting every bog entry is a trying thing when you don't have much to say actually.
i had a good Chinese New Year, like everyone else. good food, money, and i got to know a little bit more about my relatives. how nice.
it was the sense of loss that i felt that changed the entire situation actually.. looking at the festivities and all the hype surrounding this Chinese New Year has led me to reflect on, i guess, my cultural identity.
sad to say, i don't think i have one. but what the hell. do i look as if i care? you'd be surprised to know that i actually do. a lot. sigh.
perhaps it's the stress that's getting to me but i've been kinda temperamental lately. maybe it's the release of the A's next week. exactly ONE week till judgement day. okay, so now i've done it. i've touched on the taboo subject that most people want to avoid talking about. well, i can't keep mum anymore. just damn damn tired of waiting. i'm just so tired.. i want to get my horrible results over with. i just want to get the rest of my plans over with. i just want to get depressed about the whole thing and then get over it! dammit. and i'm really sorry if i sound like a petulant child. this whole thing is getting to me.
whatever it is, i asked Justin out tomorrow just so that i could get this whole thing out of my mind. i love going out with him anyway. :) i have my new red shoes to show off too! :)
i'll post pictures up later. everyone have an enjoyable weekend while it lasts.
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