Belle

New blog

2007-04-08T00:55:00.000-07:00

hey guys,

got a new blog!

it's here. Wordpress blog. haha. :)

Work Update

2007-04-02T22:45:00.000-07:00

hey all,

this is really just going to be a short update before I go to sleep. :)

man, attachment at the HCC is boring! today was my first day and, like all first days, it was lonely cuz i did not know anyone there and none of them looked familiar anyway cuz they're all from the West. haha.

i spent half my time shadowing my mentor and looking at how she conserves the artefacts, which, i must admit, is pretty cool. have decided i'm WAY not cut out to be a conservator but that's another story for another day. the other half of my time i spent reading damn boring books she gave me. i mean, i like museums and all, but how can anyone be entertained for 3 hours on a book titled: "The Handbook for Museums"?! so yeah, my mentor 'discovered' that i like reading and so she promptly handed me another 4 books to read. they're worse, actually. stuff on basketry in the Phillippines, old Chinese furniture and whatnot. siggggh.

heavens!

so yeah, i dread going there tomorrow, especially since i have to wake up so early and all. but hey, it's just 8 MORE DAYS TO GO! :))

looking forward to meeting the guys again tmr night. :)

update you on my terrible situation soon! :)

Melbourne, Victoria, Australia

2007-03-27T16:35:00.000-07:00

okay, so here are the pictures! these are the 12 (or 11?) apostles. very very pretty geological formations at the coastline along the Great Ocean Road. they're stacks and stumps and collapsed arches, mind you. :) this is at Port Campbell.

hmmm. the Great Ocean Road! it's actually one of the best places to drive along in the whole wide world. :)) but since Kai and I can't drive, we'll probably hire some tour or ride on the many buses available. cool huh!

errr. i still think this is the Great Ocean Road. :)

this is the winery in Yarra Valley. siggggh. Kai wants to spend an entire day tasting wine. HUH. i'm gonna get drunk for all Australians to see! :/

oh and btw, these and other pictures may be found here.

Leo diCaprio!!

2007-03-27T16:17:00.000-07:00

watching movies is actually quite tiring work. haha. okay, that sounds kinda spoiled but hey, i told you i was gonna slack my entire week off! :)

i just finished watching The Departed and man is it a depressing movie. almost everyone died in the end, like all other mafia shows. haha. but i'd just like to say that i really really like leo dicaprio! :))

and funnily enough, i don't like him cuz he's cute or anything. i mean hey, everyone figured that out in Titanic and back then I didn't like him. i thought he was too much of a pretty boy then and though one must applaud him for his acting (sob, sob) in that damn movie, i wasn't terribly impressed. so you can just imagine how bewildered i was to find out that i actually am beginning to like Leo diCaprio, fancy name and all. haha! :)

i LOVED his perfomances in both Blood Diamond and The Departed. can't really decide which one i liked better and maybe that's why he was nominated for the Oscars TWICE for these two roles. hmmm. gotta like that brooding look though. it always gets to me in the end.

haha. don't mind me if this entire blog post is about Leo. am still traumatised after watching The Departed. man is it depressing! but good all the same. can't say that i prefer Infernal Affairs to this. haha. can't choose cuz both are as DEPRESSING and as COMPLICATED. so what the hell. i just like the fact that they choose good and mind you, cute actors for both series. i mean no one can go wrong with Leo diCaprio, Matt Damon, Edison Chen and Shawn Yue right? :))

ahha. okay okay, so maybe i like Leo better now cuz he looks more rugged. what can i say?? :)

am going to post pictures of him soon (if i can find any that doesn't make him look like a pretty boy).

in the meantime, here are other, perhaps not as pleasing, pictures of where i'll be headed come June.

Melbourne and the Great Ocean Road! :))

siggghhh. meanwhile, i'll be waiting for Justin's call tonight like any other dutiful girlfriend. haha. damn but i hate the army for taking him away from me. :(

Phantom of the Opera!

2007-03-26T23:50:00.000-07:00

i've come to rant again. sadly, this is the only place where i can go to to rant.

i missed 45 minutes of the Phantom of the Opera! okay, so mine was the cheapest ticket available but still! i rushed all the way from the zoo on Sunday and i DID arrive just on time (albeit after half-running and half-power walking through Citilink) but guess what, dumb old me went to the wrong theatre! i went into the concert hall and my heart just sunk. i was like, "OOPS!" So in the end i reached the CORRECT theatre at 2.15pm and they didn't let me in till about 2.45pm.

*pout*

i am really upset you know. spoiled my entire day! and i just HAD to miss the Phantom of the Opera and Music of the Night songs!!!!!!! AARGH. dammit but i think i will buy another ticket to watch it again. i mean, it wasn't THAT good but it is enough to make me want to watch it again. i mean, it's not the original London cast but how often does the Phantom of the Opera come to Singapore anyway?! the guy acting as Raoul was pretty cute though. :))

anyhow, it's my last week before i go to HCC for my attachment. SIGH. it's a super long ride there. like 1 hour plus? and work starts at 8.15am so guess what time i have to wake up?? :(

and so, i'm determined to spend my last week as leisurely and as lazily as possible! i spent my entire day today watching some old Jap drama. heh.

though i will be doing some productive stuff too! have been tasked by Kai to research on some stuff for our Melbourne trip. we met up today at Compass and i think we were giggling half the time at the library cafe. haha! :) Kai, as usual, wants to know if she can request to have a CUTE guide when we go trekking.. aargh! does it matter?! haha.

what matters most is that we go to the Great Ocean Road! it's so PREEETTTYYY! i'll post pictures when i have the chance. haha. i am determined to spend as many days there as possible and try to take Kai's mind off some weird places she wants to go to! man, woman but do we really have to go to the gaol??? it's a prison for goodness' sake! i'll be scared. :(( i'd rather go white-water rafting instead (hint hint). :))

yep, and if we really have some time left, though that's unlikely, we may just visit Patty in Sydney! how cool is that? :) can't wait to go to Australia! just gotta work till i drop before then. haha. :)

oh and lastly, anyone free to watch the Arsenal match with Kai and I this weekend? it's the important one - Liverpool vs. Arsenal - and i thought it'd be cool to watch such a big match for the first time at our Arsenal home here in Singapore. and that would be the Princess Elizabeth bar if i'm not wrong. haha. *shrugs* ain't no better time to watch it right?? :))

go Arsenal!

Stay The Same

2007-03-22T18:03:00.000-07:00

Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
'Cause there's nothing 'bout you I would change

I think that you could be
Whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize
All the dreams you have inside
Don't be afraid
If you've got something to say
Just open up your heart
And let it show you the way

Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
'Cause there's nothing 'bout you I would change

Believe in yourself
Reach down inside
The love you find will set you free
Believe in yourself
You will come alive
Have faith in what you do
You'll make it through

Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
'Cause there's nothing 'bout you I would change

No, there's nothing 'bout you I would change..
Don't change..

- "Stay The Same" by Joey Mcintyre

yes, i'm a sucker for old cheesy love songs, i know. :)

An Interview With God

2007-03-22T17:53:00.000-07:00

it's been raining for most of the afternoon and i must say that it's put me in a philosophical mood. the sound of the rain pattering on the roof is a really pretty sound don't you think? :)

i keep forgetting, at times like this, what it feels like to have everything - a home, family, friends, loved ones and a chance to enter university!

i really should convince myself that i've achieved what i've set out to achieve : to be desperately and wildly happy with life.

Look here to see why i've just been chastised. It's got a Christian message but, under it all, it is very true, no matter what religion you have (or don't have!) it's about life. :)

live and let live, i say!

Myanmar V

2007-03-21T14:09:00.000-07:00

here are my last few pictures of Inle lake. this is my hotel! right on the lake and so it's just damn cold at night! but in the morning it's very picturesque because i get to see the sunrise from my bed! and it rises over the mountains surrounding the lake and, eventually, over the waters of the lake. you rarely get to see and feel such serenity these days and i treasured every minute i spent there, especically at Inle lake. particularly since i'm such a water person. i love the sea and water!

this is the last of my pictures, as seen from within the boat that we used to get around the lake. mind you, it's a huge lake and we took 45 minutes to get from our hotel to another floating restaurant in the middle of the lake. ahha. still, very soothing.

all in all, Myanmar was a surprise and more than that, it was a soothing getaway for me. i loved it but if you can't appreciate the countryside or if you don't see the beauty in taking walks around pagodas that have stood for centuries.. places like these don't offer shopping and they don't have wild entertainment, but they have awesome customer service and warm people. i loved Myanmar and it was certainly, one of the most beautiful places i've visited. if it doesn't appeal then don't go really.

i'd hate to see the stark and untouched beauty of the country be wasted on someone who wouldn't appreciate it. seriously.

Myanmar IV

2007-03-21T13:57:00.000-07:00

okay so i guess you can't tell but this is Bagan, as mentioned in a previous blog post. perhaps you can see more pagodas in the light of the dusk in these two pictures.

Bagan again. :)

errr. this looks like a painting huh? err. if i'm not wrong, this is still Bagan. damn but it's cold there. about 15 degrees celsius at night. they don't have streetlamps too so it's pitch dark and cold at night. haha. cool huh.

hmmm. this is at Inle, in the Shan state, which is somewhere in central Myanmar. very pretty lake and the best part is that the lake is, on average, 2-3m deep! so yeah, i wasn't that scared when i sat on those thin and fragile-looking power boats. these people you see here are sorta fishermen. they catch fish and gather seaweed to sell. by the way, it's even colder here, since it's a lake and all. my legs froze at night. :(

Myanmar III

2007-03-21T13:51:00.000-07:00

okay, so here's another picture of the countryside. err. as you can see, there is only a single tree in a HUGE expanse of fields and more fields. it's actually really pretty though. and very hot too. but you can't tell at all from my horrid picture-taking. haha. sorry.

ooh! next two pictures just show how traumatised i was. see all those people climing onto the back of the truck? i was one of them! we climbed onto the truck like idiots and sat there, squashed in between 50 other people (the truck's quite big) as we made our way up the mountain. it's actually a pretty fearsome way to tavel up the mountain. but there's no other way to ascend so yeah, we couldn't help it. it was a one-way thing and i think the driver had this reckless thing going on cuz he sped up a 45 degree inclined slope! my heart stopped like most of the way and so that's why i don't have any pictures of myself going up the mountain. too busy clutching the sides of the truck! sorry. :(

yeah, see the people and the truck! never ever going up the damn truck again.

oooh. this is a nice pagoda huh? about 1000 years old! so pretty! made entirely of clay and stone from a nearby river i think. :)

Myanmar II

2007-03-21T13:41:00.000-07:00

here are more picture of Myanmar. damn but i can't figure out how to post pictures using the Flock thing. *pulls hair* so yeah, i'm back to using Picasa. I can only post 4 pictures at a time so bear with me. :) here's another pagoda. if i'm not wrong, it's in Yangon. pretty huh?

this is sorta like the city square somewhere in Yangon. very nice.

oh! i remember this was taken on our first day there at Yangon. just around sunset. :)

hmmm. we just managed to take a picture of this while the van sped at close to a 100km/h (i think). he was driving so fast on an isolated road! :( you can see that this place sure is isolated though. just lots of fields and err cows everywhere. it really is the countryside.

Today

2007-03-21T12:42:00.000-07:00

hello all!

am in quite a happy mood today! (notice my lack of vocabulary) just finished all my household chores and will be going shopping later with Kai! that's so nice. :))

i already bought a dress and a shirt yesterday with her and though i can just see my money going down the drain i'm happy!

i just have to watch my spending cuz i need to save most of my money for the Melbourne trip with Kai. drats. hopefully I can get a job after my next attachment ends. haha. did i tell you i'm trying out tuition?? HAH. me, a tuition teacher. I believe there are other fates worse than this, like death, but this comes pretty close i must admit. :p

and i just had to forget that we're going to Melbourne in the winter! so dumb of me to forget that they're in an entirely different hemisphere. sheesh. and Kai had to drop another bomb on me by telling me that we'll transit on the flight to Melbourne by stopping at KL first. siggghhhhh. did i tell you that i HATE flying? i especially HATE taking off! and now I have to take off twice on my way there. sigh. i'm sorry i'm practically whining but i really don't like planes and heights. :((

anyhow, at least i have some football news to cheer me up! just read that Chelsea are facing a fixture problem what with all the games that they're supposed to play in the coming months. there's even talk that they'll play 4 games in a week! HAH. i just wish Man Utd would face the same problem. haha. :p

Arsenal all the way!

:)

when will Justin EVER come back from camp?!

aargh!

2007-03-19T13:18:00.000-07:00

aargh!

Arsenal lost! :((

okay, don't panic. it really was a heartbreaking loss for me. i mean, we were dominating all the way and then Everton scored in injury time! :(

but i suppose, as an Arsenal fan who has weathered these two seasons with them, i am going to take some positives from the match yesterday. i really was quite pleasantly surprised to find out, after missing a couple of Arsenal games, that our youngsters are really quite good you know. i mean, our top 3 strikers are ALL injured and we had to look instead to other lesser-able players like Aliadiere (although i'm sure he's a good player). anyhow, i thought Diaby played very well. Toure and Gilberto too! my heroes. :))

so i guess, if there's ever need for some comfort, hey, we're still in third place, especially without the strength in depth that Liverpool, Man Utd and Chelsea can boast about. sure, we have lots of youngsters but please, compare say Alex Song against people like Shaun Wright-Phillips. it really is quite laughable that the other three teams are still not very distant from Arsenal in terms of points. haha. what a joke!

and although i'd like to say that money isn't everything, it is in this damn world of football. but, whatever it is, THEY (the other teams) can never boast a team that plays a brilliant game of football that is entertainment for all. at least as an Arsenal fan, i know for sure that when i switch on the tv, i will get to be entertained. what more can i ask from my team? :)

uhh. yes, and so begins my hate-hate affair with the bankrolled teams in the Premiership. get lost and find your own league man! i'd prefer to be ENTERTAINED.

:))

2007-03-18T13:57:00.000-07:00

afternoon everyone!

in quite a cheerful mood today. haha. probably cause my mum agreed to let me go on a holiday with Kai in June! :) but, of course, as always, it's on condition that i pay for everything for my trip to Melbourne. drats. haha. so i HAVE got to start saving like, now. YAY. so nice of her.

she told me it'd be better to go to HK though. she just came back from some education exchange trip there and she said it's a shopping haven! :)) but my mum, being the unbelievable woman that she is, did not shop there! she only bought me a couple of shirts from Esprit. haha. and that's not quite a lot compared to her "shopping-mad" colleagues. i wonder whether they went there to teach or to shop. haha. my mum bought me some nice Gucci perfume though. so okay lar, i forgive her. X)

but since Kai wants to go to Melbourne to visit her friend, i figure it's alright to cut her some slack. haha. :p

thank God Kai's doing the arrangements for the trip to Melbourne though. i've already been tasked to present my mum a full range of OPTIONS for my family's intended trip to Tibet this June. shucks. I have to search for accomodation, food, everything! this is what happens when your mother notices that you have nothing to do. :(

anyhow, i'll update you on my travel plans soon. i'm ecxcited to see the Himalayas! gosh. :)

anyhow, i'm still missing my Justin. sigggh. he called the other night! man, it made my day. :)) apparently, he's already kinda bored there and he can only call me a few days later. :( hopefully i can see him soon.

haha. can just hear him bemoaning the fact that he probably will be missing most of the BIG movies coming out this summer. MAN I'M SO HAPPY THESE MOVIES ARE COMING OUT! :)

lemme list them down:
Pirates of the Caribbeans: At World's End (JOHNNY DEPP!!!!)
Harry Potter and the Order of The Phoenix
Ocean's Thirteen (George Clooney, Brad Pitt and Matt Damon!)
Spider-Man 3
Shrek 3
Rush Hour 3

err, did i miss anything out? haha. the year of the sequels! i can't wait to watch them all! :) i'll be sorry if Justin can't watch most of them though. :(

and lastly, i'm so worried about Arsenal travelling to Everton tonight! damn but Goodison Park is a difficult place to go to. and it's not as if we beat them at home too in the other fixture. if i remember correctly, V.Persie equalised to finish the game at 1-1 in what must have been a potentially embarrassing situation for Arsenal, at that point in time. siggh.

but, needless to say, i will stand by my team as the criticisms fly as we finish another season trophyless. hey, you could say that mebbe i'm a bad omen for my team cuz ever since i started supporting them, they've had to endure TWO trophyless seasons! which is, i'm happy to inform you, blasphemous for a team like Arsenal. but that's okay! i have faith in my team. AND you'd have to agree that no other team in the Premiership has THAT much promise for the future. perhaps we Arsenal fans should look to the future to comfort us, if crystal balls are anything to go by. :)

uhh. okay. i think my verbal tirade has ceased for now. heh. hopefully i can go shopping later when, no sorry, IF my sis manages to finish her homework.

ahhh. the bliss of doing something frivolous everyday! :)

Pictures

2007-03-16T12:52:00.000-07:00

Here's my little cousin! ahhh! he looks so cute in blue. :) my sis took this with her handphone but err it's not very good to have the phone around him. he's in his teething stage you see. :/

am starting only now to post pictures of that trip to Myanmar a couple of months ago. uhh. yeah, i know, a little late. this picture is really cool huh? we visited lots of temples and ruins that very much attests to the fact that the Burmese are very devout Buddhists. this pagoda you see was the highlight of our time spent at Yangon. it's beautiful in the light of the dusk.

this picture was taken in Bagan, the old capital of Myanmar. I don't know whether you can see from here but there are dozens of smaller pagodas that may be seen in the midst of all those trees and vegetation. we took this picture atop a larger pagoda, along with many other trigger-happy (i mean cameras) tourists. surprisingly enough, there were loads of angmoh tourists there. not too many asians. the picture doesn't do this scene credit though. a guidebook once described this scene from atop a pagoda, at sunset, as "otherworldly". :)

if i'm not wrong this picture was also taken at Bagan at the same place but at a different angle. sigggh. it really is beautiful there. the country, at certain places, just feels so untouched that i feel as if i had stepped back into time. there were times that i felt as if i was intruding too. it is amazing. i loved my time there. :))

I miss him!

2007-03-16T12:31:00.000-07:00

I have just begun to understand, to the fullest extent, why some girls whine when their boyfriends are away at army. and how it really is a big deal.

i'm starting to get upset too! :(

okay, so I won't try to whine but it's upsetting when I can't talk to Justin anymore. why, he just messaged me last night to tell me that the next time he can see me is on the 30th of March! :(( drats.

oh well. i'll be turning to some retail therapy so that i feel better. haha. I'm saving up for that iPod and it's not far now! :))

in the meantime, i'll be spending my time at the library and perhaps in front of the tv. I just read that RVP might be back at the end of april! and although he may only come back to the team for a short time, i've resolved to be positive. and so, it's the best news i've heard all day. :) YAY. can get to see him again on the field. although i really don't mind seeing the other cute guys in the Arsenal team too. we really do have the CUTEST guys you know.. haha. :)

am currently compiling a list of books that i must read before i go to uni. uhh. any suggestions? i'm starting with George Orwell's Nineteen Eighty Four. I would have read it sooner but i guess i'm only doing so now to take my mind off Justin. haha. he'll just say that i worry too much. :/

okay, so I'll be going to the library soon, perhaps meeting my sis on the way.

what a happy day! :))

just like any normal day. :)

2007-03-12T12:11:00.000-07:00

hello everyone!

since i have some time on my hands this morning, i thought i'd blog. :)

just applied to NTU, to some Communications course. sigghh. don't ask me why i did it though. it was the only course that looked a tad interesting! i'm counting on other university applications to come through anyway.. NTU has a much smaller range of humanities courses you see. :/

it's Monday! can't wait to go out SHOPPING later with Kai and hopefully i can get something nice this time. :))

we went to the zoo yesterday too. haha. but we ended up walking around the entire zoo looking at the animals instead of volunteering. bah. we didn't have any tags anyway. so that was our excuse to look at the animals! YAY. :)

we saw lots of cute ones. i was really shocked to see the crocs in the exhibit though. they were HUGE. i stayed at the exhibit a little longer than necessary too cuz i waited to see other people's reactions to the croc. haha. quite funny. most of them will not see it and then when they look to the glass, their eyes will suddenly turn saucer-like and they'll go "WAH! so big!" i thought i heard some girls screaming and quite a number of people were asking if it was fake. uhhh. haha. quite hilarious! :)

i liked watching Omar too. Omar's the white tiger on exhibit. gosh, he's gorgeous. all he does is pace around all day and still he looks magnificent!

well, you should try to go to the zoo sometime. they've renovated it again and it looks pretty cool, if i may say so myself. :)) so proud of the zoo!

uhh. yep. i'll post the pictures (if i can get any) of the last outing we had at Sakae. first time i ate there! quite cool. :))

in the meantime, i'd like to share this quote/poem from the zoo that i've always loved:

Only when the last tree has been cut down,
Only when the last river has been poisoned,
Only when the last fish has been caught,
Only then will you find that money cannot be eaten.

-Old Indian saying

Can't Take That Away

2007-03-11T18:08:00.000-07:00

They can say,
Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down,
But I will not allow anyone to succeed hanging clouds over me,
And they can try hard to make me feel that I,
Don't matter at all,
But I refuse to falter in what I believe or loose faith in my dreams

'Cause there's,
There's a light in me,
That shines brightly,
They can try,
But they can't take that away from me
From me

Oh they,
They can do
Anything they want to you,
If you let them in,
But they won't ever win,
If you cling to your pride, and just push them aside,
See I,
I have learned,
There's an inner peace I own,
Something in my soul that they cannot possess
So I won't be afraid and the darkness will fade

'Cause there's,
There's light in me,
That shines brightly, yes
They can try,
But they can't take that away from me

No, oh oh,
They can't take this
Precious love I'll always have inside me,
Certainly the Lord will guide me where I need to go

They can say
Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down,
But I won't face the ground,
I will rise steadily sailing out of their reach,
Oh Lord, they do try,
Hard to make me feel that I,
Don't matter at all,
But I refuse to fall,
Tell me what I believe or loose faith in my dreams,
'Cause there's a light in me,
That shines brightly yes

They can try but

they can't take that away from me

I've always liked this song, perhaps the only true song i've ever liked by Mariah. (:
Appropriate huh?

complain

2007-03-08T20:37:00.000-08:00

hey all.

the infrequent timing of my blog posts aside, i have been quite busy this week. okay, perhaps not as busy as some who have work, but nevertheless, busy.

if anyone asks, i'm submitting scholarship forms just for the fun of it. heck, my grades wouldn't even make the first cut but say what you will. maybe i have a perverse fascination with filling out forms. HAH. whatever the reason may be, i have been busy, yes, filling out all kinds of application forms.

i have discovered another form of happiness in the course of this week though. in no way is it satisfaction with my grades or whatnot, but it is pure satisfaction with life in general. i have a family, friends and loved ones. what more could i ever ask for?

there is no goddamn use in lamenting the 'hardships' that we face in life when, i believe, we have never ever experienced true hardship.

and this brings me to another thing i've been pissed about this whole week. i seriously HATE the fact that our national pasttime is to complain. HATE it. couldn't HATE it more. it's disgusting to hear locals complain in the vicinity of foreigners. and the most humiliating thing is that we complain about the silliest things.

tell me, why do we complain about the education system when others around the world have none? or when others around the world have a much more rigorous system?

or why do we lament about friendship problems in school when other people in this world (like autistic children) find difficulty even in making friends in the first place? do you hear these children complaining?

or why do people complain about the family and how they have problems communicating with their family? then what about the millions of children around the world who get sold as slaves and have to endure abuse? or the thousands of women in Africa who have to endure spousal abuse?

this is pure utter bullshit and i HATE the fact that we're champion complainers.

you know what? maybe that's why i HATE myself too.

assholes.

depressed.

2007-03-03T08:31:00.001-08:00

well. that day has come and gone.

i'm much the happier for it because i can finally do all that i've planned to do, without the heavy heart.

yet, if it could be possible, i feel lost.

and only i know the reason why..

BIG=DEVASTATING

2007-03-01T05:19:00.001-08:00

tomorrow's the BIG day.

and though I'd love to postpone the day and wish that they'd never release the results, i know that, somewhere in me, i could never want that to happen.

i just want to get tomorrow done and over with. and though i'd also love to say that tomorrow's results don't mean a thing, they do. they mean everything to me.

and if you don't hear from me in the next few days, well, you know what happened. i'd probably need a LOT of R&R if the news is bad.

right now though, i want to spend this last night free of thoughts of tomorrow and what it ultimately brings.

i just hope to God that i can get some sleep tonight.

brace yourselves, men. eat, drink and be merry for tomorrow, dear lads, we die.

People II

2007-02-23T07:08:00.000-08:00

this is way long ago pictures, i know. but i wanted to post them all the same, since i can finally post pictures on my blog! here are all of us, at NYNY, celebrating kai's birthday. nice night too. :)

the girls again.

the guys!

and all of us. :)

People

2007-02-23T07:03:00.000-08:00

err. i hope i'll be posting the pictures on the right blog this time, although Kai has posted most of it on her blog. i can't post lots of pictures after all. some Blogger thing. *shrugs* siggh. anyway. here are the pictures when we had steamboat over at Lp's place! enjoyed myself very much that night. it was the night i learnt how to play mahjong! a day to remember. :)

the girls. all 6 of us. :)

everyone! the camera finally worked but i got squashed. :(

err. is it lou hay? gosh, some Chinese word i dunno how to pronounce. haha.

gutted.

2007-02-23T06:33:00.001-08:00

starting every bog entry is a trying thing when you don't have much to say actually.

i had a good Chinese New Year, like everyone else. good food, money, and i got to know a little bit more about my relatives. how nice.

it was the sense of loss that i felt that changed the entire situation actually.. looking at the festivities and all the hype surrounding this Chinese New Year has led me to reflect on, i guess, my cultural identity.

sad to say, i don't think i have one. but what the hell. do i look as if i care? you'd be surprised to know that i actually do. a lot. sigh.

perhaps it's the stress that's getting to me but i've been kinda temperamental lately. maybe it's the release of the A's next week. exactly ONE week till judgement day. okay, so now i've done it. i've touched on the taboo subject that most people want to avoid talking about. well, i can't keep mum anymore. just damn damn tired of waiting. i'm just so tired.. i want to get my horrible results over with. i just want to get the rest of my plans over with. i just want to get depressed about the whole thing and then get over it! dammit. and i'm really sorry if i sound like a petulant child. this whole thing is getting to me.

whatever it is, i asked Justin out tomorrow just so that i could get this whole thing out of my mind. i love going out with him anyway. :) i have my new red shoes to show off too! :)

i'll post pictures up later. everyone have an enjoyable weekend while it lasts.

CNY!

2007-02-17T00:46:00.000-08:00

hello.

sorry i haven't updated in awhile. it's been pretty hectic at work. :)

i just thought i'd update and say that i loved Valentine's day! i had a lovely evening with Justin and though we went home early it was a memorable one. he gave me a bracelet! *grins* so sweet. he doesn't even care about fashion and stuff so that's really sweet of him. :) i gave him a box full of stuff. heh. and i baked a cake too! though he didn't eat it in the end cuz he spoiled it. :/ mann.. 3 hours of work down the drain.. nvm bah. i'm going to make a new one for him! haha. :))

credit must go to Kai though. she must have been so tired helping both of us. (I didn't know she helped Justin choose the present) you're gonna get a V. day treat woman! :))

anyway, it's just a few more hours till reunion dinner! (the time on my blog entry thing is wrong, i don't have any idea how to fix it) i don't like reunion dinners as a rule. you get bombarded with HUNDREDS of questions and though you'd love to give a smart-alec answer to every single one of them, under the watchful eyes of your parents, you smile, nod willingly and give monosyllabic answers. SIGH. i probably won't be talking much tonight. there's food though! that's a relief. :) haha. i'm currently at the stage where i am THANKFUL i'm so well, fleshy. gosh, the story Kai told me was so hair-raising i've resolved to not go on a diet ever again! (although i think my resolve will be short-lived) :)

okay! must get ready for the dinner. :) must find something to match my red bag. haha.

V day!!!

2007-02-14T01:22:00.000-08:00

it's Valentine's day!!

and although having a nice dinner out with Justin tonight is good enough for me, i think it's really very sweet how this day is being celebrated here in Singapore. :)

okay, so mebbe i'm looking at everything through rose-tinted glasses, but so what? i love the busy florists lining the floors with huge bouquets of flowers of every kind, i love the gaudy heart-shaped balloons that some starry-eyed girls are carrying, i even love the pained look on some of the men's faces when i see them scurrying about during lunchtime, obviously trying to get everything perfect for tonight. haha! it's all so sweet that finally some men learn not to take their other halves for granted for at least for ONE day. and this one day is good enough for me i guess. :)

it is cute to know that he thinks i won't like my present. but i think Justin forgets sometimes that extravagance is not everything. in fact, it may count to nothing if your heart's not in it, no? so it's simple, really. whether or not he gives me flowers won't ruin the entire date. it's his presence that counts more than anything. haha. mushy huh? X)

it's just another hour till he sees what i've got for him! YAY.

will tell you if we managed to get a seat when i reach home. :))

RACES :)

2007-02-09T01:53:00.001-08:00

hello once again!

I'm still at work, feeling very lonely at my desk, while doing some research. But, I must say, the research is going pretty well. I like what i'm doing today: anthropology.

It's not something i want to major in when in university, but i'm thinking of trying it out as a minor if possible. it's pretty cool you know. at last, i am told that i am normal, and that perhaps all the races in the world today (and possibly everyone of different skin colouring) originated from the same area of the world and only developed different colourings due to differences in the amount of melanin present in the skin. HAH.

now i don't feel like an outcast anymore.

i have some really interesting websites though. especially one that talked about how Adam and Eve must be heterozygous in order for the world to have so many skin colour differences. they can be found here and here. don't expect all the information to be reliable though, cuz i thought some of the data in the second website sounded strange albeit interesting. :)

anyhow, it's close to 6pm! YAY. going to meet Justin for dinner again soon.

everyone have a good weekend ahead alright? best of luck to all those O level kids too.

It's your turn now. :)

2007-02-07T05:53:00.001-08:00

hello.

just a quick update today! i rarely get time to blog after work, you see. :/

i promised Justin a WHOLE paragraph on my blog for him, after he read that paragraph reserved for the cute French guy Kai and I met at the Science Centre. haha. well.. i just wanna lament that i haven't found anything for Justin for Valentine's Day!! *panics* he knows that already so, uh, it's not a secret or anything. but it's just so difficult to find stuff for guys, don't you think? gosh, it's not as if i'm arty or anything. (Kai can attest to that) i can't make nice lil' cards or flowers or whatever it is that you do with art materials. *shudders* so, yeah, one option gone. SIGH. it'd be so much easier if i just get to persuade him to tell me what he wants right? *hopeful look* am i rambling by the way? i think i am.. where was i? oh yeah, and my paragraph for Justin is about to come to an end. haha. errr. just wanna say that i'm looking forward to seeing him again?? eventhough it's like, uh, 1.5 hours since i last saw him. :))

alright! i think i gave too much information. haha. i'm going off to get some rest then. it's the middle of the week! gosh, if only the week could END. hey, wait, i take that back. when are we getting back our A's you think? i'm gonna try to bury myself in the smallest and most isolated part of the world and not come out till, err, i want to.

oh hell, i guess i'm a coward. so what?

_______ kids. 'nuff said!

2007-02-04T04:32:00.001-08:00

hello one and all!

just came tottering back, all the way from Jurong East and the Science Centre, where i did some volunteering today. haha. you must think i'm crazed to volunteer on a weekend huh? well, you'd be right i guess. :)

anyway, i had loads of fun!! i always like volunteering there. it helps when you get to see mixed kids (with such nice HAIR - the brown/golden kind). haha. i think Kai had to stop me from staring at them too long, lest their parents think that i'm a paedophile or something.. heh. X)

anyway, i'm not blogging about such nice-looking kids today. instead, i'm blogging about the OTHER kind of kids i met on the way - the total opposites! gosh, safe to say, these kids are NOT Singaporeans. they are err, foreigners on a school trip to the Science Centre. dammit, but they were rude. they kept pushing and shoving and they just shoved the other placid Singaporean kids aside and just STOLE the toys. Kai and I were like HUH? so rude!

Thank goodness i couldn't speak much of that damn language and so Kai had to bear the brunt of it all. mann but i don't pity her. if my kids will be competing with those insolent ones i met today, later on in life, i'd rather my kids remain jobless or whatever. so rude. gosh. those kids, way younger than me, actually ruined my afternoon!

if not for the, ahem, cute French guy that tried to play some of our puzzles, i would have labeled my afternoon a failure. haha. i think Kai and I had stars in our eyes when the French guy came over. the thing is, he is, ahem, much older than us? haha! but he looked so cute standing there we were like, "you wanna come try??" *grins*

i, for one, happen to like the Science Centre very much. X)

anyhow, that entails my very eventful day at the Science Centre. seriously though, it's a pretty cool place. loads of exhibits and all. MUST go there another day to look through all the exhibits. haha. :)

perhaps, if i occupy my time more enough, i can take my mind off the dreaded day that is looming ahead, ....right?

I saw Eternity.

2007-02-03T09:01:00.001-08:00

I saw Eternity the other night
Like a great ring of pure and endless light,
All calm as it was bright,
And round beneath it time in hours, days, years,
Driven by the spheres,
Like a vast shadow moved in which the world
And all her train were hurled.

from "The World" - Henry Vaughan

i suppose spending the entire day reading has not helped but i'm in a pretty philosophical mood today.

here's yet another poem, but a poem that is very familiar to me. i came across it one day in a book i was reading, years ago. (it was the same book that got me hooked on dolphins, actually) and i've never really forgotten it. the book was beautiful; it talked about issues that i was facing at that age, and of death.. but in a most philosophical way, of course. i recommend that book to anyone who's feeling lost or downtrodden. it is, as i said, beautiful. it's titled A Ring of Endless Light by Madeleine L'Engle.

and everytime i read that poem, it still strikes a chord in my heart. it's written by a 17th century poet who obviously had a much deeper sense of poetry and of worldy issues than people nowadays.

you can find the entire poem here.

i am pretty sure too, that this entry will be of comfort to me in days to come, when i find myself in the most rotten of moods, or when i finally succumb to my thoughts of failure and depression.

after all, Eternity is a comforting notion, however disparaging it may be in that poem.

like a great ring of pure and endless light, how beautiful it is to imagine that in death, and in life.

Beauty

2007-01-31T19:23:00.001-08:00

"Beauty"
by: John Masefield

Have seen dawn and sunset on moors and windy hills
Coming in solemn beauty like slow old tunes of Spain;
I have seen the lady April bringing in the daffodils,
Bringing the springing grass and the soft warm April rain.

I have heard the song of the blossoms and the old chant of the sea,
And seen strange lands from under the arched white sails of ships;
But the loveliest things of beauty God ever has showed to me
Are her voice, and her hair, and eyes, and the dear red curve of her lips.

Having spent a wonderful evening yesterday with friends, i'm currently in a half-exhausted state, even after i slept in this morning and woke up late. :/ gosh, the lychee martini tasted weird. all in all, my rapidly declining throat is capping off what promises to be an interesting day for me. hhaha.

just wanted to share this poem, which i came across while researching some stuff.

have a great day ahead! :)

You STILL give me something!

2007-01-30T06:59:00.001-08:00

have you noticed how the temperatures have dived these past few days? now, i rarely get to say say such sentences, being a Singaporean and all but whoa: it's been cold these few days don't you think?

this unusually cold period has, unfortunately, aided the dreaded existence of my cold and that is why i still am bitterly coughing right now when i should have recovered days ago. :/

typically, i would have been jumping for joy at the weather because i do so like the cold. siggggh. even if i can't really experience much of the weather when i'm stuck in the freezing museum stapling worksheets together. yes, waddya' know, the only significant task i remember doing today is stapling a whole stack of worksheets together. that ranks up there with buying food for the rest of the department and err stamping tickets alright. gosh, it feels like slave labour.

i suppose i've become what i've always scorned (and never thought i would be) : a worker bee, like how many Singaporeans are, scurrying to and fro from work each day, shoving and pushing past everyone on buses and trains, trying their damndest to impress their superiors and striving to be what we've always been known for - efficient. damn. and, just like a worker bee, i have an almost zilch social life, the only bright spot being the celebration we're having tomorrow for Kai.

YAY! that's cause to celebrate. haha. *shrugs* we take what we get i suppose. :)

looking forward to it. haven't tried out NYNY before so i hope the first time will be impressive.

meanwhile, before i get some much-needed sleep, i just wanna thank Justin for being there on saturday. you don't wanna talk about it but i want to. what you did meant something to me, however embarrassing it was for me. haha. you were there when it mattered and i won't forget it. thanks babe! :))

debt-ridden? forget it!

2007-01-29T07:07:00.001-08:00

after much calculation, consideration (and stimulation of my rusty mind), i've decided to voluntarily make myself free from debt for the rest of my life.

how funny it is that it was such a simple decision to make, at the end of it all.

and so, now, we wait. X)

in the meantime, i look forward to spending more time with Justin before he goes to the army. and perhaps get some money to buy myself some much needed stuff.

ahhh. the bliss of having such a weight off my mind. :))

shell-shocked

2007-01-27T00:44:00.001-08:00

the day i've been waiting for, for so long, has come and gone. it's now the day after and i'm still shell-shocked.

gosh, has this really happened??

and yet, i'm reluctant to go because of everything i leave behind. isn't it ironic?? i've wanted this so much for so long and when the day finally came, i was reluctant to go!

i still am reluctant to go but i've decided to pursue my dreams. they're mine and mine alone. and if i don't take this chance now, i'll regret it, unbearably.

you understand don't you?

it's just what i have to give up that hurts me the most.

and yet, i believe in fate. and i believe that if it's all meant to be in a later time, then let it be. :)

*takes a deeeeep breath*

i've got to get ready!!!! :))

2-1

2007-01-22T02:10:00.000-08:00

OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!

Arsenal beat Man Utd 2-1!!! i wish i could underline the damn scoreline.

those losers. haha.

will tell you all about it tomorrow (or is it today?) when i have time during work.

gosh, i'm high!!

that's MY team i'm talking about. damn if i'm proud as hell. X)

conflict-free? hell, yes.

2007-01-18T10:19:00.000-08:00

err. as Justin may attest to, i'm in a kind of obsessive mood right now. haha. especially after since i watched Blood Diamond yesterday. gosh, conflict-free!

my attraction to the newly-rugged looks of Leo diCaprio aside, i actually enjoyed the movie. so, okay, i squinted my eyes at the bloody parts and pretended i didn't see all that blood splattering, but the message behind the show was for a good cause.

i SO am not going to buy diamonds! even if i get married, it'll be a sapphire or emerald or ruby or whatever. if some girls have to buy diamonds (diamonds, contrary to popular belief, need NOT be a girls' best friend), then insist on CONFLICT-FREE ones. throw a hissy fit at the damn jeweller, do whatever you want, but just be adamant that you get conflict-free ones. understood?

you know, the entire show struck a chord with me because, as so aptly pointed out in the movie, we non-Africans don't actually know what's going there in that continent. yes, we read articles daily, "oh, one of the African countries have gone into civil war again, how sad!", we see those pictures of devastation on tv and perhaps we may just write a check of $150 to the people there. but are we really helping? are we really addressing the root of the problem? i say nay.

and if that doesn't make you feel guilty, then i don't know what will.

i watched the show and i think, ironically, that this is perhaps the first movie i've seen where i think it's less exaggerated compared to reality. just thinking about the people and what they've been through, i feel helpless to do anything but watch as they die by the hundreds of thousands every year. and what makes it worse is that i guess i just really am one of those people who perhaps lament abouot everything but don't really do anything.

HAH. i stand accused, guilty as charged.

and there's nothing i can really do about it.

sigh.

what a morose day.

check out this article by the way: http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20070117/ap_on_sc/congo_gorillas_killed

aside from the dig about gorillas, you really should read it. and perhaps read the park warden's blog too. it's not sensational or whatever in current media terms i guess, but just imagine what it would be like to be afraid to walk in your country in broad daylight, for fear of not only getting shot, but beaten up by the rebels. oh no, let me revise that, imagine what it would be like to firstly have rebels in your country.

gosh, i'd hate to be bubble-wrapped and safely cocooned in a life like this. then again, who wants rebels?

life's loves lost.

2007-01-14T07:09:00.001-08:00

what happens when you don't know what to do? when all you feel is a sense of lost and, perhaps, for the first time in your life, you truly understand what courage means? what your loved ones mean to you?

it's hard. God, it's so hard.

it's one thing to be excited, piqued even, of what lies ahead. and it's another thing to be terrified of the future. of what you have to give up, of life's loves lost.

i don't want to go through that again. not again.

In the light of the sun
Is there anyone, ohh it has begun
O dear you look so lost
Eyes are red and tears are shed this world you must have crossed you said
You don’t know me, and you don't even care
ooo yea
You said you don't know me, and you don't wear my chains ooo yea

Essential yet appealed
Carry all your thoughts, across an open field
When the flowers gaze at you
they're not the only ones who cry when they see you
You said you don't know me, and you don’t even care
ooo yea
Well you said you don't know me, and you don't wear my
chains
ooo yea

She said I think I'm going to Boston
I think I'll start a new life
I think I'll start it over
No one knows my name
I'll get out of California
I'm tired of the weather
I think I'll get a lover
I'll fly them out to Spain

I think I'll go to Boston
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town to leave this all behind
I think I need a sun rise
I'm tired of the sun set
Here it's nice in the summer
Some snow would be nice
Ooo yea

You don't know me
And you don't even care
Ooo yea

In Boston! No one knows my name
No one knows my name
No one knows my name

Yeaa

In Boston no one knows my name

perhaps it's best to start over where no one knows my name.

for the first time in ages, i can safely say I'm BORED.

2007-01-12T00:50:00.001-08:00

hello fellow friends!

i think, for the first time in ages, i can finally admit that i'm BORED.

it's not the job, really. i think it's just me. they've given me an ample amount of work but i think i've been slightly too ambitious. i've sorta finished it all. i've left just a teeny bit left and it's for next week, especially the part about going to the library. hmph. i think the guy there hates me. he refused to help me do some scanning and so i had to learn how to scan pictures all on my own. bah, it's not that i mind learning new stuff, it's just that he flat out refused me and that was impolite. :/

anyway, let's not spend time talking about that. haha. i'm now stuck in front of my computer, gazing surreptiously around while i type, so that i can switch back to my search page, to give some sort of indication to anyone who walks past that i'm doing work. haha. gosh, i feel guilty. i must look so suspicious - sitting barefoot (my shoes are wet), in front of the computer, looking as if i'm stressed out by all the work i have. haha. i wanted to ask for more work to do, but i've decided to give myself a break since it's err friday? haha. ever heard about T.G.I.F?? X)

i did ALOT of work on the com though. i found out that Scarlett Johanssen is gorgeous in whatever she wears and that Jessica Alba has an amazing tan. sigggh. oh! and that Brad and Angelina look wonderful together! yep. that's about it. haha.

i'm looking forward to tomorrow! matches all night long. and i can get some sleep at last too. :))

for now though, i'm just looking forward to my dinner tonight with Justin (if the sun prevails/if there is no more rain).

will be updating you soon.

shopping tomorrow!!

yawn

2007-01-10T07:23:00.001-08:00

the worst thing, ever, in my opinion, about going back to work is the fact that i get less sleep. gosh, the number of times i thought of my bed while at the ACM must have been countless!

it's not helped by the fact that my work revolves around searching for information on the internet. sigggh. the only reason why i don't blog over at the ACM is cuz it's pretty obvious to everyone what kind of work i'm doing on the computer as they walk past and well, it would only prey on my conscience too.

anyway, i fulfilled only one out of the two promises i made the last blog entry. BAH. i wore heels, which was, incidentally, the last time i will ever wear heels to work (maybe for this week), but i didn't manage to have a sandwich for lunch. err. firstly cuz (a) it's too tempting after 5 hours without food, facing the computer and (b) dammit but a sandwich is not filling! :/ so yeah, i'll probably try to smuggle some fruits in tomorrow? cuz i think i'll just get fat working at the ACM.

did i tell you that i had both lunch and tea time today? the people bought chocolates and some sweet stuff and cake that i never should have touched in the first place. oh NO. what have i done?!! :/

sigh. been slightly out-of-sorts lately. have no idea why.. either it's the lack of sleep or maybe it's just something else altogether.. you may think i'm crazy for thinking this but i find myself going back to memories or, should i say, fantasies that i had when i was child? you know when you read all those Enid Blyton books and you wish you were the small girl, getting to run around in the garden, looking for toadstools and faeries and whatnot, happily playing the day away, coming in for tea-time to have butter and scones when "Mummy" calls? haha. i think that was way too detailed. uh. forget about it.

just some whimsical fantasy of mine that probably shouldn't be spoken about in the first place. haha. now you know what i dreamt about when i was a little girl huh. aha. so you see, the anglophile thing probably all started when i began reading those Enid Blyton stories when i was a wee kid. haha.

before i end in my usual abrupt manner though, i just wanted to say that my day was all the more brighter today because of the Arsenal win!! actually, after watching the game, i thought we didn't really play very well. only a few shots on target and, luckily for us, almost all of them converted. i was so sure Liverpool were gonna beat us this time round, especially after Wenger said he was going to send out a weakened side. haha. i'm damn proud of my team though. especially proud of all the youngsters! my sis is still sulking. she refused to watch even one part of the replay. ahha. all i hear from her now when i mention the game is : "that Dudek! it's all his fault!" err. DUH. haha. gosh, we're good. X)

anyhow, i'm going off to sleep now. gotta wake up EARLY to pass Kai stuff. *mutters* haha. good luck for the interview, woman! :)

ta-daaaaa~! done! :)))))

2007-01-08T22:33:00.000-08:00

heeeello!

i'm just about done with my work on the com already and boy, am i glad. :))

i must tell you all about my first day of attachment at the ACM. i'm attached to the programmes department and i must say, all of the people are really nice. they really bother about whether you've eaten lunch yet and they don't work your noses to the grindstone, unlike certain workplace horror stories. haha. or maybe it's just cuz it's my first day of work. *shrugs* all i know is that i enjoy very much the un-stifling environment. it's relaxed, you can just imagine ideas flowing.. X) and of course it helps when you've got a great boss, with eyes that are gray-blue(i think). he tells funny stories about his wife and stuff and makes everyone feel right at home. how cool is he? :)

the only letdown of this whole place is that i feel like a damn pig, i tell you. i went for lunch and bought my usual bee hoon and sausages and egg and stuff. it's your typical hawker food right? (tell me it is and that's it's not unhealthy) but guess what kind of food the other girls ate?! one was eating her own home-made burrito-sandwich while another was eating some $5 salad. ugh. CHICK food. and even the woman who went with me to the hawker centre just had a bowl of soup. *wails* why can't anyone ever eat proper food??!!!

hmph. i refuse, simple refuse, to stand down. well, ladies, i'm bringing my own home-made sandwich tomorrow too! don't think i can't! i just have to figure out what you actually have to put in those sandwiches to make it healthy. *mutters darkly* i'll get it right. SHEESH. women.

i also don't like the crowd, did i tell you that? squeezing next to this headphone-blasting guy on the train at 8am in the morning is NOT my idea of a happy morning. and how the hell those women can walk in those mile-high heels i don't know. they walked faster than me and i was wearing flats, for goodness' sake! i think i'm a failure. sigggh. fine fine, i'm wearing heels tomorrow, just to prove myself wrong. gosh, i think i'm becoming nuts.

anyhow, just for the record, i am looking forward to tomorrow's dinner. :)) there's never a time when i would turn down a chance to see all my favourite people! YAY. see you guys tomorrow, although i'm just SURE i'll get lost on the way. i got lost in the museum today, dammit. *mutters again*

well, hell, see you guys tomorrow. :)

alas, it is not mine to reminisce.

2007-01-06T15:59:00.000-08:00

hello once again!

just came back from lunch with Justin. aha. he looks like a secondary school kid in his Ventures uniform. :p

if you're wondering why he's in his all-too-small uniform, it's cuz Serangoon's orientation was today! sigh. i wanted to go back, just to reminisce and look at how my juniors were coping. but it was only going to be Elaine and I and I just wasn't tempted I guess. (sorry, Elaine)

anyhow, I still saw loads of Serangoon kids at Kovan today. I didn't know they changed the unifirm. :/ I must be getting out of touch I guess..

hmmm. went to Video Ezy too and hmph, i am so rattled by that guy at the counter! he actually asked if i was 18! don't i look 18 to you?! I think it's cuz I was with Justin and he looked like a secondary school kid going to school on a saturday. haha. X) I refuse to believe I don't look 18! he actually had that damn nerve to look suspicious too when i switched the M18 vcd for a PG one. I can't help it! I'm borrowing for my family, after all. :/

bah, let's not talk about insanely suspicious individuals.

I'd much rather talk about tonight's match!!! *fingers crossed* truth be told, I seriously don't think Arsenal can win, especially when it's Liverpool home. (what's with the draw anyway???!! why is it both drawn at Anfield?!) judging by the all-too-perfect home record 'Pool have, even the most ardent Arsenal supporter must admit that it'll be tough for our guys. sigh. but that doesn't mean I won't be hoping for a victory! if there's one thing I know about my team, it's that they don't shy away from challenges. let's just hope Henry and co. will rise up to it and maybe, just maybe, blow away that home record?? haha.

come 1.10am this morning, you'll know where to find me. :))

well. another day and a half before my attachment starts! days pass by so quickly.. sigh.

hopefully it'll be good news that I'll be waiting to tell you come Monday, after the first day of my attachment. :)

cut me some slack~!

2007-01-03T09:38:00.001-08:00

hello y'all.

don't mind me if i've not blogged for ages yet, because i keep wanting to live up these last few days before my attachment begins on the 8th.

yes yes, i know i'm at fault to begin with, since i applied to the attachment myself, so no complains over here..

how was New Year's Day for everyone? i must say, i had quite an exciting New Years. yep. lazing on the couch watching Ashton Kutcher drive himself silly on VCD quite sums up my entire 2006, non? i'm just glad this 2006 has ended and 2007 has begun i guess. it's definitely going to be a year of changes, whether i do well for my A's or not (touch wood).

so today, Kai and I had to run an errand near Raffles Place and guess who got us lost? why, dear Kai herself. what exactly is with the "if i'm lost, then i just walk straight" philosophy?! gosh, that woman drives me mad sometimes. X) after alighting from Raffles Place, we intended after our errand to go to the National Library. and where does she take me? oh.. Tanjong Pagar MRT. do you know that's FOUR stops away from Bugis and the National Library?! aaargh, to think i walked that distance in heels. i resolve to get back at her some day.. :)) HAH.

regrattably, i think such situations are bound to arise aplenty now that our fares have been changed to adult fares. damn. who knows what will happen if someone decides to take a walk through the urban unknown since it is, admittedly, cheaper??

anyhow, it was first day of school today for almost everyone.., except me and the rest of the ex-JC kids. sigh. after 12 gruelling years of education, it seems almost like a dream come true when i don't have to return to school any longer on the 3rd of January. think: it will no longer hold any significant meaning from this year onwards. how exhilarating! :)

Kai and I were discussing our future today.. i contemplated teaching but, err, judging from my not-so-kindly view towards school right now, i don't see myself ever wanting to become a teacher, seriously. doesn't anyone ever feel confined within the school? i don't ever want to go back to that depressing feeling of confinement actually.. well. i'll think about it.

anyway, enough about my ramblings. i just finished watcing the replay of the Arsenal-Charlton game! gosh, i swear v.Persie's getting better with every match. :) i don't like the way he dives though. very Robben-like and totally NOT to my liking. siggggh. but, you'd have to admit, on other fronts, he's doing pretty well. he's eager for the ball and though he squanders loads of chances, he still manages to put some important goals away spectacularly. that's my boy. X) a bit shocking to see him carry Henry up though. i find i tend to underestimate the strength of the male species, although you have to admit that a slight person like v.Persie does not look like he has much strength. haha. :p

okay, enough for the night. i have, err, about 10 books to finish before the 8th. gosh. better start on them soon.

night everyone!

Christmas!

2006-12-25T07:57:00.002-08:00

hey guys.

i know i'm cutting it kinda close but i just wanted to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas!!!

this is to all the people who've played a part of my life this year, be it secondary school chums or long-lost friends or loved ones or even just my family, i just want to wish you guys a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. :)

this christmas, i am just ultimately grateful that i am surrounded by the people i love, with a roof over my head and a christmas tree that has been lighting up my living room ever since the first day of December.

isn't that all that really matters?

:)

i'm ba-ck!

2006-12-22T12:01:00.000-08:00

hello one and all. (:

it feels amazing to be back in Singapore after just 11 days in Myanmar. i was starting to miss everyone. ):

don't get me wrong though, Myanmar was enchanting. the people were awesome and incredibly gracious, the scenery was breathtaking and the history of the country so insightful. i could have gone on and on about this beautiful country if i could but i guess no one would be interested much. that's okay! i'll just post pictures up later. i know people deal better with visual stuff anyway. (:

i had an excellent time last night though! (: so nice to see friends you haven't seen after 2 years. actually, no one has really changed much. it's still so easy to talk to everyone and i had a ball of a time. i only wish i could have stayed longer, that's all. Pras and Patty's inclusion into the mix was also great. so amazing to see them after 2 years. (:

sigh. i'll try to post pictures for this too. damn. i owe a lot of pictures right now.

anyway, gotta go! going library later. yay. ((: a few hours of pure peace. waddya know? (:

Here I Come, like it or not.

2006-12-09T00:12:00.000-08:00

okay people, it's midnight.

am officially flying off to Myanmar in 8 hours.

oh goodness, let the plane ride be okay. did i tell you i hate plane rides? they're bumpy and you lost all sense of footing thousands of feet in the air. i'd rather be on the ground, thank you very much.

well. will miss everyone till i'm back. i'll take pictures! heard there's glorious, picturesque scenery there. the obviously genius photographer in me will capture all the beauty there in the frames of my digital camera, don't worry. haha.

and i'll be singing the "12 Days of Christmas" (albeit fast-foward a bit) to everyone i see when i come home!

alas, i figure i'll be yearning for the bright lights of our city before long..

to everyone, see you soon!!!

P.S. Justin, you better not forget your promise! i want to go ice-skating!! ((:

Myanmar - the country of dreams

2006-12-07T23:37:00.000-08:00

hello!!!!

i have, superficially of course, gotten over the prom setback. apparently, LOADS of other people ended up in the same boat as me: nowhere to go after the prom and forced to either demean myself and go home after one of the most important nights of my JC life or slack around with friends with no proper place in mind, drinking the night away.. haha. of course, i chose the former, as all of you would have probably imagined.

anyway, enough about the prom! not going to be deterred by that special (if you can call it special) day. i will instead talk about post-prom stuff.

my mum bought my sis and i new beds and a wardrobe!!! YAY. so now when i go into my room, i can smell fresh fresh wood. SIGGHh. that must be one of my favourite smells in the whole wide world. haha. ((:

i went for my ACM interview today too. mann. the guy interviewing me had such nice hazel eyes, i was staring at it the whole time. haha. actually, i'm not even sure they're hazel. but it's just different from the usual dark brown/black variety and so of course i was fascinated by it. heh. (: i passed the interview anyway!!

YAY.

gonna work at ACM for a total of 2 months! wheeeeeee. am really very piqued about the entire thing. work officially starts on the 3rd of January and so i've vowed to myself to keep my last remaining December days as un-stimulating as possible. let's just hope that's possible.

and lastly, i went to Mindcafe too. it was really cool. *sniggers* Justin and i trashed the other guys like 3 times out of 5 or 6 for this particular game. but i gotta admit Darren trashed us in the other train game. ( see Darren? i didn't put u down. hmph. it's your turn!) overall though, it's a really good place to go to. too bad Dennis and Fish came too late. must must bring Kai and my siblings some other day. ((: i need to feel superior. haha! (X

okay, yes, that's it. other than the disastrous cooking lesson that i got from my grandma today, where my grandma told me never(NEVEEEERRR) to attempt to cook curry, (my own grandma! you'd think she'd be more encouraging. sheesh) i guess i've had a pretty high-spirited day.

who'dve guessed?

((:

one more day to Myanmar trip!

God, i hate planes.

prom prom prom. ):

2006-12-06T02:41:00.000-08:00

bah, humbug.

Christmas cheer must not be getting around this time of the year, what with the so-so prom i just attended.

imagine: the most (well, supposedly) important day of my JC life and i come back by 1am. HAH. how stupefying is that?! there was no post-prom party to go to, restaurants were taking their last orders by the time we reached there, and, worst of all, we all had to walk to these inaccessible places in God-knows-how-high shoes. my feet hurt. )):

but i guess i have only myself to blame. i could have chosen the post-prom party beforehand and thought of my shoes, if nothing else. i guess it's just not a good idea to point fingers at anyone here in so public a domain.

prom was okay. the imperative word being okay. it started on time! that's a plus. but i guess the emcee got a little irritated with all of the camera flashes and sickly sweet smiles as most of the population actually just spent half their time taking pictures. no one really bothered about the prom king and queen thing anyway.. i swear i yawned once or twice throughout the entire event. bah!

the only good thing about it is the people-watching i suppose? it's fun fun fun to see people dress up. i must say everyone looked really nice. ((: no one, to my knowledge, dressed horrendously. and that is, i suppose, the best way to sum up what was a really mundane night out. especially when i had my hair so nicely done. ):

that's a once-in-a-lifetime thing okay!

anyway, i, like many others before me (it's a time-old tradition thing), took lots of pictures and i'll just post them up maybe sometime later when everyone has recovered from their hangover or is awake enough to pass me the pictures online. i'll be posting up graduation photos too. (:

there is no other time better for reminiscing than the present anyway..

anyway, my poor dear Justin had a bad time today. he didn't particularly like the standing-around-and-doing nothing thing we were doing for half hour or so after the prom. he apparently doesn't like to wait very much. haha. poor thing. it's okay! ((: we'll be meeting up again tmr at the cafe. maybe he'll feel better after a good night's sleep. i will! haha. (:

well, i guess i should be sleeping soon.. thanks to the girls who did hair+make-up with me this afternoon, i could have otherwise experienced one of the most mundane prom experiences ever.

i didn't even win an ipod for goodness' sake.

prom prom PROM!

2006-11-30T22:38:00.000-08:00

YAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!

found my prom dress. ((:

after hours upon hours upon hours of searching for the very dress for my beloved prom, i finally settled for a simple classic black one. BAH. dresses!

well, hell, it's below my budget and i like it cuz it doesn't make moi look fat. so, there, it fits the bill and i'm lovin it more and more everytime i see it. haha. sometimes, a simple classic cut can be all that you need anyway. (: i just hope no one has the same dress as me. haha.

*pulls hair out*

i didn't search all over town for nothing!! i would really mind if someone wore the same dress as me but i guess it may be excused if we accessorise differently. *shrugs* i mean, S'pore is really quite small. the chances of a girl having the same dress as you can sometimes be quite high. haha. i just gotta hope and pray. (:

anyhow, i've been to town for like, 4 consecutive days and so now my body is rebelling. ): i never thought i'd say this but i think i want to sleep early today. haha! i wanna give my poor legs some rest.

oh yeah. i went to school today for my interview and i had to be in half-uniform. (not a good thing to wear when you go to town after that. damn. i got lots of weird stares from J2 Meridians i saw there)

mann. i never thought i'd touch my school uniform too but life is just so unpredictable huh? i passed the college interview though! (it wasn't difficult when Ms Lim was giggling in the background) so now i just have to prepare for the ACM interview. yep. *takes a deep breath* i so dearly hope i can convince the ACM people to accept my attachment eventhough i haven't touched a shred of history a day pass secondary 2. (X

and after that, i could be attached to HCC or SAM! YAY. really uber cool. can't wait. although this means i won't have money on my own. sigggh. you'd think a parent would prefer her child to work so that she can handle some of her own finances. but, no, my mum insisted that i do something "worthwhile" and "learn something new" at the same time. so look where i am right now. haha. (:

okay okay. i'm really tired right now. don't wanna think about Arsenal too.

*depressed*

*wails*

what happened to my team??!

oops!

2006-11-27T15:01:00.000-08:00

oops.

haha. i just read my previous post and i wonder how lucid my mind was when i made my blog post. :/ but that's okay! i've gotten over it. it's now my sister's turn to get hung up on Laguna Beach.

today, instead, will be my very usual update on everything to do with football. YAY. haven't done that in a long long while..

hmmmm. i shan't talk about my team's defeat. very heart-breaking. :(( i just knew something was going to go wrong! it was Bolton after all and i can still remember the defeat we came away with last season at the Reebok Stadium. bah. well, we came away with a defeat once again. damn.

anyway, i'd much rather talk about yesterday's highly-anticipated match instead. mann. i dislike both teams but i just gotta say that i realised my true feelings for Man Utd last night. haha. i seriously dislike Man Utd more than Chelsea. but that's another story for another day. i'd rather talk about the match. *grins* they drew! PHEW. very good result for fans of other teams. that includes me, of course. :)

okay okay, i admit i was secretly supporting Chelsea last night but that's between me and you alright? X) for the record, the draw is a very good result.

i actually agree with Mourinho (i think that's a first for me) that Carvalho should be man of the match. except for that really silly mistake he made when his poor defending led to the Saha goal, i thought he was a rock in the defense, very much like Terry. i seriously fancy the Terry-Carvalho defense partnership. they're very good together. :) also, of course, i won't put Carrick down because i think he did a good job marshalling midfield. he made tackles and interceptions at the most important moments and that's what expected of him right? err, yeah.

the ref did a good job too controlling a game that could have gone out of hand. it was pretty obvious that tempers were flaring throughout the game.

anyhow, good result overall. i'll just hope Arsenal will do well in the upcoming big matches too. *crosses fingers*

in the meantime, i'll worry about my prom dress some more and enjoy the rainy afternoon at the same time. YAY. (:

just a thought.

2006-11-25T15:25:00.000-08:00

just recently, i've been hooked to this really frivolous MTV show called Laguna Beach. some of you may have heard of it and may have had a distinctly lower impression of me because of it but hell, i don't care. ((:

it's really absorbing i must tell you. it's just about a group of teenagers our age living in the so-called posh neighbourhood of Laguna Beach, California. i got hooked from the second season onwards and i just completed the entire third season. and so it may be slotted in the same category as all those air-headed shows on MTV like 'My Super Sweet Sixteen' (ugh, i hate, totally hate, that show) but let me tell you, it's never been further from such frivolty. haha. okay, so i'm a bit (slightly bit) biased but i don't believe my opinion is far from the truth.

at first, when you watch the first few episodes of the third season, i suppose the thoughts going through your head would run along the same line as mine. i was, i suppose, morbidly fascinated with how kids elsewehere in this world, mind you, kids the same age as us, could be so damn interested in human relationships. haha. and by that i mean boys and girlfights and stuff. but then later i realised it was so much more than that. hey, i face some of those same problems myself.

and so, the bottom line is: i came away with the reassurance that all teenagers, whereever they may be, face the same problems growing up. it's essentially the problem of self-esteem and how we look at ourselves. and that has helped me more than you can ever imagine. (:

amazed at my voyeuristic tendencies i may be, but i can't help but reminisce the times i've felt as lost as them all. so whilst the rest of the Asian teens grapple with late-night chinese/korean/japanese dramas, i have my own drama to look forward to, however westernised/americanised it may be.

Thank God i've found something else to watch. (:

by the way, you can watch all the episodes on:

www.lagunabeach.mtv.com

if for nothing else than to satisfy the voyeur within. haha. have fun! (:

P.S. if you think this post is un-Isabelle like, haha, i think so too. must be Laguna Beach then. hey, then you shouldn't watch it. (; i promise i'll return to my staid, sensible self soon enough. cheers!

tired legs, mind, body and ... heart?

2006-11-23T23:23:00.000-08:00

hey y'all.

gettin slightly frustrated at not being able to find a dumb dress for the prom. haha. as Kai so dearly noticed, i tend to gravitate towards shoes more when i go shopping. and is it not the unwritten rule that a girl SHOULDN'T buy shoes before buying her dress?? sigh. i really can't help it! when i see shoes, i don't just see shoes, i see neon lights shining around them, tempting me to go buy.. haha. tell me all girls suffer from this same problem! :/

well. seeing as my eyes tend to wander towards the shoe department in every store, i didn't exactly find the dress i was looking for today. :( i found loads and loads of pastel frilly ones though. haha. which, honestly, just don't suit me. oh well. i just am grateful it's some kind of 'dress' season now and there are suddenly more dresses than usual in stores. PHEW.

i had a wonderful time today though. shopping is always fun. :)) i have resolved to do more sit-ups in preparation for the damn prom. sigh. and lots more running, and blah. right now though, my body can't take all the battering i've put it through. haha. i ran 4 rounds today and yesterday in the hot hot morning sun! mann. okay, i know 4 rounds don't seem a lot, but, trust me, it's horrid when it's the first time after so many many months mugging in the fine cold of the library. bah. :(

ohh well. i'm so not in a position to complain anyway. we're done with the A's! YAY. and Arsenal won. haha. err, sorry, but the level of happiness i feel everytime Arsenal wins a game is sorta equivalent to the level of happiness i felt when i finished the A's. haha. so they go together whenever i think about the A's.

saw Jing&Hui today again too! yay. i put their names together like that cuz they're twins! haha. inseparable. and i've finally managed to identify one from the other! starting today. after, err, like 7 years? haha. :)) they're so warm-hearted too. Kai was a bit traumatised by the fact that they bought ONE U2 cd to celebrate the end of the A's. haha. she thinks it should be two different cds EACH. err, yeah. :)

whatever it is, i'm just glad i have loads of time now to kill.

in the words of Shakespeare,
"What's gone and what's past help,
Should be past grief."

let it be.

a few timid steps towards bliss.. (:

2006-11-20T17:30:00.000-08:00

have i ever told you i like holidays? man, if these past few days are anything to go by, i predict i am so going to love the next 8 months! :))

anyway, i just want to cajole everyone to go watch Casino Royale. for the girls, must i say more? Daniel Craig! he's so stylish and rugged i think i swooned right there in the theatre.. haha. i think that irritated Justin as well as the guy in front of me but err, who cares? *grins* err, for the guys, err, maybe the nice car sequence? haha. actually, i was quite impressed by 007's acting too. good choice for Bond, i say! :))

hmmmm. since i've had so much time on my hands lately, i have this queer feeling to, you know, go back to doing some constructive work. haha. i can see my desk from here and it's looking at me so forlornly. :/ or mebbe i'm just hallucinating. i believe it's just a post-exam vibe, so don't mind me! :)

well, the past few days have seemed to pass by in a blur. been reading Death Note online while i wait for my library books to come. haha. i'm err, at chapter 41? don't laugh if i'm slow.. i can't really stare at the computer screen for more than 45 minutes. :( anyway, i like Light! yep yep. i'd choose him anytime over L, although i know Kai and Jf would beg to differ. heh. watching L makes me hungry. :/ that's not a good thing. and so i resent him for that. haha.

i didn't get my Arsenal fix this weekend! *wails* i fell asleep before i could watch the damn match! and i don't even know if it was delayed! sigh. i didn't get to see v.persie this week. oh well. he's injured, poor guy. anyway, Arsenal drew and i heard it was the same old story: dominated possession but couldn't find the back of the net. SIGH. we need some confidence soon!

in the meantime, while my siblings watch Cars without me, i'll go read my new Nora Roberts book! or mebbe i should just continue with chapter 41 of Death Note. i really can't decide. haha. you face such tough decisions when you get so much free time. :))

FREEDOM!

2006-11-17T13:37:00.000-08:00

FREEEDOMM!!!!

pardon me if some of the JC kids have not finished their exams, (it's really exhausting, i know) but this damn song 'Freedom' by George Michael is going through my head.. I'd jiggle my butt to the damn song and perform numerous other dance-like moves, however unsightly, to celebrate this moment of moments but err, i'm too embarrased. I did shout with joy though when i came home, with no one to hear me. X)

FREEDOM!

hot damn. i have really waited for this moment for 2 very long years.. it was worth it i must say. :))

the A's are over!!!!

1#i can watch every single Arsenal match, be it 10pm at night or 2am in the morning.
2#i can read every single book i've wanted, including the one that's been on loan to me for 2 years now. :/
3#i can throw away the whole load of sec school textbooks and other assorted so-called trash that is absolutely obsolete.
4#i can finally watch DVDs/VCDs till my eyes burn!
5#project runway! :)
6#errr. shopping? a woman's favourite pastime.
7#i can spend more time with my friends. YAY. :)
8#and finally.. do you think they've uploaded more videos of v.persie on youtube? haha. X)

okay okay.. so mebbe that list is extremely frivolous and you could have rolled your eyes at some of it. but hey, a girl's gotta have something to look forward to when she finishes her exams! hahahahahahahaaha. 8 months free!! i can't believe it.. :))

okay, gotta go read my book now. ahhhh. what a gorgeous way to spend an afternoon! will be going out with justin next week i guess. YAY to that too. :))

till then, see ya. haha. and for the rest who still have exams, jia you! there is certainly no greater reward than hard work. :)

1 week

2006-10-26T23:50:00.000-07:00

hello!

this is going to be a short and very sober post.

it's precisely one week before the A's and if i told you i wasn't freaking out yet, it'd be a total lie! i'm just so panicked right now, it wouldn't be good to see me in this state..

anyway, this is to all people havin major exams, don't freak out! and good luck.

ciao. ((:

poster

2006-10-07T00:33:00.000-07:00

okay, here's the poster thing. watch it if you can. everything dire about the environment. :/

an inconvenient truth, is it not?

2006-10-07T00:23:00.000-07:00

heeelo people.

is it me or is the haze gettin to us all? mann, i swear everyone seems more irritable now.. or mebbe it's just the oncoming A's. *shrugs*

whatever it is, i sure am gettin really annoyed. visibility is this much and the problem doesn't seem to be abating! it's apparently really bad over at my place especially.. my mum got so freaked out she even contemplated staying in a hotel for the night. :/ uhhh.. i'm not that affected by the haze yet, but i will be, pretty soon.

*mutters darkly*

oh hell. it's 27 days more the the start of the 'As. heh. not good! i wish i could panic, but it's more than that; it's a bone-deep fear that i'll not meet up to my expectations.. that's the only kind of expectations you'd want to live up to right?

school has become a chore. i mean, i wouldn't want to go to school to hear teachers predicting our dark and dreary ends, no thank you. if i have problems with my writing, i sure as hell will not be told such stuff with only 27 days to go. dammit. i really wish we could have these weeks free. if i really do have problems with my writing and writing techniques, (which, of course, i do) i'd want to have a good 1 or 2 hours to myself and the teacher to sort out my problems and to work them out. :/

but i guess i can't complain.. so i'm still going to school next week. i will try to find a way not to freeze myself to death in the library, where all muggers rule and you have to be unnaturally quiet. :/ but since i've noticed i tend to be more productive in this 'most sacred of learning sanctuaries', i'll be sticking to the mug-in-the-library-till-you-burn-out routine till the 'As.

i seriously swear this whole haze thing was timed to coincide with us mugging this last lap for the A's. i know, i know, conspiracy theories and all aside, as Mel Gibson once said in "Signs": 'there is no such thing as a coincidence'. hmmm. i was philosophical for once. cool! (X

anyway, speaking of pollution and climate stuff (is this another coincidence or what?), there's this new movie coming out soon. it's called "An Inconvenient Truth". some movie about climate change. haha. i think i'm watching it with JF soon. uber cool. ((: will post the movie ad/poster thing later..

well. let's just hope England win tomorrow night and Gerrard scores. that'd make my weekend. oh yeah. and i hope the haze clears off soon. preferably right NOW.

*mutters darkly*

boys boys boys.. (X

2006-10-01T13:18:00.000-07:00

mann. i can't get enough of my team! haha. here's a really nice picture involving all my guys: Henry, V.Persie and Fabregas. sigh. i think this picture is more for Kai though.. Fabregas looks so happy with the goal. aha. X)

okay okay, i know i've talked a lot about V.Persie lately.. i mean, hey, no one noticed him huh? and then he made everyone sit up with such a spectacular performance agianst Charlton. haha. i always knew he had it in him. ((: i'm so friggin' proud of him, mann, i'm bursting to tell everyone about his talent. haha. well.. i've already posted up the goal. it's not particularly clear but it's the only English version i cound find on Youtube. haha. it'll have to make do. but i guess even with the blurred images, you can see how it was such a special goal.. now, finally, i hope everyone will take notice of V.Persie. (X

Go Gunners!! (: A Gooner all the way.. (however silly that sounds.. haha.)

boys

2006-10-01T01:23:00.000-07:00

haha! lookie. it's my boys again. all my favs: V.persie, Hleb, Fabregas and Henry. mann. they should always, always stand in line. gorgeous, all of them! heh. ((: and it helps that they play good football too! i promise i'll post the clip of V.persie's outrageous goal soon.. Wenger seemed so happy with him after the game. i'm so proud! go Gunners! ((:

brilliant! simply brilliant!

2006-10-01T01:15:00.000-07:00

hey all. :)))

my saturday night football just ended and boy has it been a good saturday! :))))))))) i've never been more proud of my v.persie. haha.

mann. his goal was superb!!! sublime. just simply beautiful. haha. i think it's the best goal i've seen from him so far.. and to top it all off, it was the match-winning goal! WHOA. love his goal to bits! i'll post his goal up here when i get the chance. everyone MUST see it. it's the kind of goal that can only happen like 1 out of 10 times, or actually even less.. everything was perfect and of course, to me, it was much more perfect than the Drogba goal against Liverpool some time back. haha. mann am i proud of v.persie. super UBER proud. really really proud! haha. :)

hmmm. speaking of Liverpool though, they really didn't have a good game. my sis was coming up with all sorts of excuses about why Liverpool were losing when we were watching the game together.. it was from excuses like 'the goal was offside!' to claims like 'the referee kayu lar'. sheesh. that woman is simply deluded when it comes to her team. anyway, i thought Liverpool lost due to a combination of bad luck and bad goalkeeping. sheesh. Reina shouldn't have given a free-kick just outside the penalty box! :/ but, you gotta give it to Bolton, they looked the better team most of the time. (shhhh... don't tell my sis i think Liverpool deserved to lose. she'll so kill me) haha.

anyway, i'm just glad a few teams lost points today. *ahem* yay! ((:

well. i went out today. had a really really good time. best time i've had in ages! dunno why.. mebbe cuz it's just after the prelims or mebbe it's cuz i just missed going out. haha. ((: but, whatever it is, i had a great time and i hope there'll be more times like that in the future! i like learning new stuff and i look forward to err practicing it. haha. *grins*

i'm a happy happy woman today.. am now gonna go back to my book. haha. love you people. work hard for the A's k?? it's just ONE more month! another month and you will never see hypo testing or exchange rate policies or cliff profiles again. :/

mann. will it take that long?

bliss.. again.

2006-09-20T13:39:00.000-07:00

heello all. :)

yesterday marked the official end to my prelims. mann, that's such a good feeling! haha.

shan't shan't shan't talk about how my prelims went. instead, i'm wondering what to do for the next five days. aha. i already spent my entire morning cleaning the house. and so now i'm bored. :/ there's only so much reading i can do.. hah.

i've decided to give myself a break cuz i think it's scary the way my mind hasn't rested in days. i've been having problems sleeping at night cuz there's just so many things going thru my head! a song, what i did today, how the paper went, blah. it's like my head's buzzing and it's really exhausting. :(

oh well. i watched NGC yesterday and mann was it fascinating! it was a documentary showing how geologists managed to determieg how the features and landforms surrounding the Columbia River in Washington came about. the place looked so familiar and i'm very sure we were given a picture in geog that looked very much like this. yeah. i thought the features were the result of changing sea levels but i guess i was wrong. :/ wasn't way off though!

it was the result of the explosion of an ice dam 15,000 years ago during the ice age! haha. the ice caps moved southwards from Canada and retreated to some river valley 250 miles away from Columbia River. but because the glacier was so huge, it dammed the river valley and there was like so much water behind the glacier that collected over the years. when finally the dam broke cuz of pressure and supercooled water and stuff like that, it just created this whole torrent of water that was like a tsunami x10000. uuurgh. over a trillion cubic metre of water or sth. and it carved out the Columbia valley/canyon 250 miles away overnight!

cool huh? i was so amazed. :))

okay, yeah. and so i've been thinking about that the entire morning. now for my lunch.

everyone enjoy their day ahead! :)

she's a desperado. :)

2006-09-15T11:31:00.000-07:00

'Pray give me a good ship so that I may sail into harm's way.'

hmmm. i think i need more than a good ship to vent enough of my frustrations and for anyone to tak notice. :/

mann. the prelims are hell. period. at least i can take a breather before math paper 2 on Monday. i'm praying really really hard that this paper will save us. because, judging from paper 1, i sure ain't gonna achieve even half of what i wanted to achieve. sigh.

yesterday was pretty amusing though. haha. i got a really bad cold in the morning and so i was sneezing the rest of the morning away. and it got worse, of course, in the hall in the afternoon when we took our math paper. bah. the people who sat beside me were worst hit. poor people. :/ i was sneezing throughout the paper. it wasn't that bad though, considering i only finished one packet of tissue paper in 3 hours. :)

let's just hope the sniffling and the sneezing will abate come mon and tues. i'd hate to torture poor Rachel again with my constant sniffling. haha.

but, as dear kai so kindly reminded me, i shouldn't be bemoaning my current state. there are people worse off than me! poor people. :/

poor Justin caught chicken pox from Kai and now he has to miss the entire prelims! i hope he gets better soon..

errr. it's raining really heavily right now. so cool. :) i love the sky when it darkens. altough i think my sister gets more crazy about the weather. bah. that woman! still moping and sulking about L'pool losing the Merseyside derby. okay, so I didn't expect that they'd lose, not to say lose so badly, but it's a derby! things like this are bound to happen.

hmph. she should be more worried about the match this Sunday. mann. i'm terribly worried! we've only chocked up one win this season so far and it's not even in the league! isn't that more worrying against a club like Man Utd, who's gotten, like, 4 wins out of 4 in the league?! sheesh. and i just found out that Henry and V.Persie are doubtful for the match this sunday. OH SHIT. mann.

oh yeah. haha. i just noticed something. V.Persie falls as theatrically as Robben. haha. X) they fall in the same way, actually. arms flailing in the air and then crashing down to the ground. heh. poor V.Persie though. getting all that flak about the penalty. sigh. i stand by what the manager said: i feel it was a definite penalty but i'm quite sure it wasn't a red card! what is happening to refs nowadays man. :/

well.. let's just hope that the matches this Sunday won't be marked by controversy in any way, (though it makes for entertaining football). haha. hmmm. talking about controversial football, anybody know when Chelsea will be playing Barca?? mann. i love those matches, the atmosphere is great and the pre-match and post-match comments are almost always hilarious to read! haha. Mourinho is an entertainer through and through.. though he is as shrewd as it gets.

hmmm. okay, enough about football. i gotta go figure out a way to get lunch for my brother and i without getting caught in the rain. mann. even an umbrella doesn't look like it'll keep even half my body dry! but i really do love it when it rains. the wind is just awesome and sometimes, when it's a real thunderstorm, visibility is very much reduced and i get to bask in the constant flashes of light only. haha. :))

wish me luck keeping dry!

refusal's a good thing right?

2006-09-09T18:01:00.000-07:00

hello people!

don't mind my previous morose entry.. this entry ain't gonna be that bad. cuz i refuse, absolutely refuse to talk about schoolwork. it's on my mind enough as it is and i don't want to drown, however prematurely, in rampant thoughts of exams, schoolwork and predicted grades. uuurgh.

so.. let's talk about my days so far. :))

i'm actually really happy we were given 2 weeks to consolidate. i can run on my own clockwork and it is glorious to wake up at 8am every day. i love the sunshine just then, just when everything is bright and not so warm. i don't particularly like waking up at 6am you see.. haha.

i admit i do get distracted a bit, especially with football. heh. tonight's 3 must-watch matches! okay, well, 2 must-watch matches. i don't think i should watch the Man Utd-Tottenham one. haha. like what i told my sis today, i dunno who to support less. so yeah, let's hope both teams draw lar. 1 point to each! *evil laugh* that's a lose-lose situation ain't it?

am really really looking forward to the derby tonight! mann. i can feel the atmosphere even on the other side of the telly.. come to think of it, i guess i'm a bit of a voyeur in that way. *shrugs*

speaking of alleged voyeurism, Arsenal's playing today! heh. against the giant-killers called Middlesbrough, no doubt. sigh. *she crosses her fingers*

hmmm. i think, though, that the whole transfer thing is crap. who ever knew Chelsea would air their dirty linen in public? you know, my impression of that club is just going down the drain... :/ if not for the fact that they have an awesome captain in JT, i would have, well, dismissed them altogether. bah.

but i'm so proud of Arsene Wenger! if there was something good that came out of this entire saga, it's that Wenger's reputation improved. at least to me, it did. :)))))))))

he handled the entire thing perfectly, with absolute professionalism, showcasing the gentlemen that he is. he even graciously let go *i refuse to call them names* Reyes and Cole when those idiots decided to be disloyal to the very club that helped them build their careers! ignorant losers. (oops, sorry, did i just call them names? couldn't help it)

okay.. *takes a deep breath* i feel better! am going back to geog now. atmosphere. sheesh.

did you know that earthshine is 4x greater than moonlight?

haha. just another random thought. happy studying!! :)

I'm your angel.. but are you mine?

2006-08-27T22:26:00.000-07:00

I was thinking about my dreams today..

I've dreamt of a lot of dreams. ambitions, they may be called. I've thought about them a lot this year. They occupy my mind half the time now and it's getting worse.

And I have no idea what to do right now. Especially right now.

I want to live my life with no regrets. So if I'm forced to make a decision next June, I'm not too sure I'll do the right thing. I'm very sure the typical mind-heart tussle will occur.

And so which will I listen to? I want to live my life with no regrets..right?

hah. This is so annoying. If I think about these things anymore, I'll go hysterical.

This blog entry is hysterical actually.. oh God.

I thought and thought and thought... And I don't want it to happen again. Ever. Ever. I don't want to go hysterical again. And I don't want to look back and wonder what the hell went wrong.

I don't want them.

Why? oh God, why did you do that?

Pictures!

2006-08-26T19:16:00.000-07:00

oh shoot! i hope i did this dratted thing right this time round.. is the collage nice? haha. everyone looks very nice. ((:

i'm blind.

2006-08-26T19:11:00.000-07:00

hello one and all!

don't mind me as i'm currently distracted by the 02 Arsenal podcast playing on my com. heh. it's free! and i'm listening to how they're preparing for tonight's match against Man City. ((:

have had a busy busy time recently and so i really can't blog much. haha.

but i've had a wonderful time today! great great time. i'm just happy i got some rest today. must do some work tmr though. sigh.

do you think it's possible to get some sleep after the A's and not get fat?? haha.

i'll post some pictures for you all to see later.

cheers. (:

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless
As you turn around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep
That even you could not bury if you tried
After all this time

I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything
Would be like it was before
But nights like this
It seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever want to leave
Maybe you could not believe it

That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

bah humbug.

2006-08-14T23:34:00.000-07:00

okay, short post again!

well... i just wanna say thank you to everyone who celebrated Dennis and mine's birthdays on Saturday!

mann. u don't know how much i LLOOOOVEEE my Arsenal jersey. and the new season hasn't even begun! ((:

THANK YOU thank you thank you!

will post pictures of that day soon. i still haven't gotten Lp's set of pics though.

haha. i hope we'll do this again some other time. ((:

jia you! another month to go. dammit. (to the prelims)

muse-d

2006-08-06T12:13:00.000-07:00

it's sunday! how the days pass by so rapidly..

less than a month to the prelims. shoot.

i'm in dire straits and i'd display a neon sign proclaiming my need for help all around if not for the fact that i know everyone else is in the same precarious position as me. :/

oh hell. i can still display it here.

HELP!

time's ticking away and so what the heck am i doing at the computer?!

i can't believe that Aug 19th is coming too. :( i can't watch those EPL matches, i simply can't. but i dunno how i can call myself an Arsenal fan if i don't even watch the first match of the season in the new stadium. oh shoot.

it's do or die now. i so am not gonna die.

quickie

2006-08-02T18:43:00.000-07:00

hey, this will be a quick one.

why do days pass by so quickly when you want it to pass by as slowly as possible?

i wish days were >24 hours actually.. much more beneficial to us at this point in time.

dammit.

i so am gonna watch all Arsenal games after the 16th!

:/

no smoking!

2006-07-28T23:44:00.000-07:00

if not for me charging my mp3 player in preparation for tomorrow, i wouldn't be making this entry. i wouldn't even be at the computer.

because i hate going on the computer at night.

and i hate people who smoke, ya know that? it has freaking external costs in consumption, these people overvalue the goods and its a dumb demerit good.

see?? studying econs benefited after all.

i really don't care whether you smoke or not. what matters is the health of the people around who are inhaling second-hand smoke. i bet you didn't think about that, did you?

i so do not want to suffer from respiratory problems at your hands.

this is crap.

hello, long time no write?

2006-07-25T23:02:00.000-07:00

hello. (:

i came back online to blog cuz this dear blog has been pretty listless this past week or so. come to think of it, its owner was kinda listless too. :/ bah.

i wish i could tell you that i feel better but i don't. perhaps this condition will cease come mid-November.. hah.

ya know, i just realised that i've been unconsciously trying to keep certain memories (of home) close to my heart. the memories that i'm referring to are casual instances in my life that have come back to haunt me sometimes as i think and ponder.. they can be of people i know, or just the scenery. they all come back to haunt me, now and again, and at first i didn't understand why.

like i still can remember very clearly my most recent memory: it was sometime this week and i was going to school early. everthing was just blissful and it began to rain, very fine rain. and the rain droplets were falling down on the roads through the bright bright rays of sunshine. i remember hoping for a rainbow and looking at the casual scenery through new eyes. because, to me, everything looked golden and beautiful just then.

let me share with you another one: it was a few months back when our soccer boys were still in the midst of their tournament. i was going back home pretty late in the evening and i suppose the sun was just beginning to set. the boys were still playing on the pitch and i had the most perfect view of them, with them still shouting hoarsely for the ball, still running on those tired legs. and, whilst they were at it, the setting sun set such a gorgeous backdrop. everything looked magical then. i still love this dusky period of the day. i was so affected by it, i recall making a remark to Kai about wanting to capture this all on photo. i didn't though.

i can remember loads more and they are all still in such perfect clarity in my head. i'm just sorry i can't explain it to you all in greater detail.

but i've finally understand why i'm subconsciously doing this..

every single day nearer to that day saddens me. but i think it just shows what i truly want. and i know i'll continue to take these 'pictures' or memories in my head till i have no need for them anymore or till i am unable to do so.

i sincerely hope it's the latter, no matter what people may say.

and, just like before, every single day is one step closer to achieving my dreams.

depressed

2006-07-14T15:56:00.000-07:00

hey.

i'm still not really in a mood to blog right now. hasn't got anything to do with anyone, just that i'm feeling pretty disappointed with myself.

dammit.

so i just thought i'd make this entry to show that i'm still thinking of my blog and everyone out there.

work hard fer the A's alright? it's just another 4 dumb months.

can't wait.

2006-07-06T09:16:00.000-07:00

hence my fascination with everything tennis is renewed with Wimbledon and all.. here's the world's top 2 - Federer and Nadal. they couldn't be more different in terms of playing style though. Federer is grace and elegance defined, with accuracy and patience as his important qualities. Nadal, on the other hand, is all brawn and muscle, with such a dear streak of competitiveness in him. heh. so that makes him all the more exciting to watch. though i support and watch Federer ALL the time. uhh. yep. who am i trying to kid? :))

2006-07-06T09:11:00.000-07:00

Federer! always has this look on his face - a quiet competitiveness that is so important in the sporting world today. heh. really, TRULY, deserves to be world no. 1. he's just like the Zidane of football, minus the age and the decline. he's still very much at the top of his game, yet he makes it look so easy. whoa. :)

2006-07-06T09:08:00.000-07:00

Oooh. trademark Nadal. he scares me sometimes, bulging biceps and all. after all, he's only,what, 2 years older? damn child prodigy. ;)

2006-07-06T09:07:00.001-07:00

Mario Ancic, my other current favourite player, though he was sent packing after Federer defeated him in the Wimbledon quarters. damn. :(

2006-07-06T09:07:00.000-07:00

yay! Ancic again. he's Croatian, ya know. :)

ahhh.. i can sniff it. (:

2006-07-04T16:26:00.000-07:00

put it this way, i can just about sniff freedom. it's lurking round the corner and tempts me with each passing day. with today being the dismal end of what was one week of torture, nerves and guilt all rolled into one, i can finally relax, at least for a day, before school reopens.

what bliss.. (:

now it's just two more major examinations to go before i can finally kiss goodbye to the uniforms, the hysteria, the sheer rigidity of it all. oh how i want it.

alas, now's not the time to think about sweet endings and the fresh new air of freedom..

i am, sad to say, gutted by today's math paper. it's the worst feeling in the world to sit for a paper, know that you can do it, but not perform to your very best. shucks. mebbe that's what the England team feels right now cuz i am just so disappointed with myself. oh Lord, how many more times will this cycle of nerves, guilt and trauma repeat itself?!

well. whilst i look into myself for some much needed self-understanding, i will prepare for today's semi-final match with glee! heh.

what a match to savour. the Italians versus the Germans. WAH.

and i believe the Germans will triumph. not because of anything other than home advantage though. yep. cuz the Italians are good. rightly so. they have a superb defence and just such an admirable midfield.

but the good ol' Germans will succeed cuz of the fans. although it helps to have an amazing coach pulling the strings (this is a snub at Erikkson, naturally) and just fabulous team spirit (yet another snub at the England team). i'll be looking to Ballack and co. to providing brilliant performances today.. who's with me? haha. ((:

i do wanna address some pertinent issues left hanging after the England-Portugal match before i go though.

firstly, though i do agree that the red card given by the ref was harsh, i think Rooney deserved it. he shouldn't have protested in the first place. RIGHT in front of the ref! whoa, shows how smart he is. i understand passion, but i don't care for hot tempers. and that's what Rooney has. he has to learn to curb it, cuz i think it's gettin irritating (for me) to watch important English players get sent off at the most inopportune moments.

needless to say, i don't blame Ronaldo. (yes, what a shocker) i dislike to him to bits. i really do. but i don't think he is to blame for the sending-off of dear old Rooney.

and, lastly, i think that Terry deserves to be the skipper now that Beckham has finally given away his armband. (phew!) i like Gerrard, i do, but i think that, with the fate of the England team in mind, i think that Terry possesses greater qualities to be the inspirational leader on the pitch. yep. my hero. (:

well. now that i'm done saying all that i wanna say, i think i should just go back to my world of storybooks. thank goodness for the library! ((:

i just wish that some people would have the decency to be sensitive to other people's feelings. why can't that ever happen?

no more 'God Save The Queen' for me.

2006-07-02T12:53:00.000-07:00

wait, no, don't say it.

i know.

England lost and my much-loved Gerrard missed from the penalty-kick. damn. now both my teams (England and Holland) are out. can't tell you how devastated i am!

seriously though, England really have to do something about this penalty-shootout thing that they always undeservedly lose. to me, with arguably the best players in the world in this English team, it's horrifying and just absolutely mystifying to see them miss penalties that they should have converted.

but i think that, the English team, with the knowledge that they have never won a penalty shootout in the World Cup before, approached this cruel (way of deciding the match) in the wrong fashion. all the players looked pale and grim when they stepped up to take the penalties. it didn't help that our goalie is well, not exactly penalty-stopping material.

i miss Lehmann. :(

well, hell. i'm disappointed but i can't say that this came as a shock to me. i expected them to go out anyhow. let's just hope that Steve Mclaren finds that elusive team-bonding glue and, in so doing, creates a world-class team of world-class players. until then, this team of brilliant individual players will just have to do some more pondering and go through some more 'if not for this..' thoughts on the plane back home.

sigh.

but you know me, this disappointment didn't really last long. heh. i watched the Brazil-France match!! :)

and that says it all.

mann. Zidane can now count me as one of his many many admirers after the beautiful and awe-inspiring performance he put in last night for France. and i think the word 'beautiful' is really apt here because the way he plays is just that: beautiful. to me, he is the epitome of grace, elegance and beauty when it comes to playing football. and i mean that in a good way! :)

he is, as the French put it, magnifique. 'nuff said.

it'll be terrible to see him go after this Finals..

seriously though, i thought that France put in a fabulous performance. great skill and technique and just, really, a bunch of old men who still have the flair and experience in the game to make it count at the most crucial moments. love them.

so now i'm supporting both Germany and France! yay. let's hope it'll be their final. they deserve it. all the accolades, all the praise. :))

and so, now that i've said all that i've said, i think i'm going back to sleep. sheesh. sleeping at 5am is not a good thing.

till then, i'll post up some pictures.

2006-07-01T22:23:00.000-07:00

this picture says it all, doesn't it? Gerrard always stays down like this when he loses an important match. i think that, when it came down to the crunch, Portugal came out tops, fair and square. how the hell did England lose their head?!

2006-07-01T22:21:00.000-07:00

mann. i feel sorry for him. he cried ya know. so like him. but you could see he knew what had happened to him. he was a great captain. (notice the word 'was'?)

2006-07-01T22:20:00.000-07:00

Hargreaves! he deserved man-of-the-match honour. :)) he worked so hard. there's only really one 'Owen Hargreaves', as the English fans put it. i hope this sterling performance has silenced his critics. HAH.

2006-07-01T22:19:00.000-07:00

heh. can i put another picture of Hargreaves?? can't help it. love it when he plays and has this intense look on his face..

2006-07-01T22:18:00.000-07:00

yay! Henry finally scores another goal to prove his critics wrong. HAH. he is, after all, our main Arsenal man. ;)

2006-07-01T22:17:00.000-07:00

the fight between the two playmakers. hah. no prizes fer guessing who won. Zidane, always. :)

2006-07-01T22:16:00.001-07:00

look at that! Zidane has such skill. again.

2006-07-01T22:16:00.000-07:00

my two fav guys: Henry and Zidane. they played well! :)

oh God.

2006-06-30T22:56:00.000-07:00

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
ah huh that's right

I took your words
And I believed
In everything you said to me
yeah huh that's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Coz they're all wrong
I know better
Coz you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
oh no no no

I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you a friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'Fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
But they knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who Knew

Yeah yeah

I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Coz they're all wrong and
That last kiss I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes it harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep you memory
You visit me in my sleep

My darlin' who knew
My darlin' my darlin' who knew
My darlin' I miss you
My darlin' who knew

Who knew

heard this song and i was really... at a loss for words. damn.

damn damn damn.

2006-06-26T14:25:00.000-07:00

i'm sorry but this is gonna be a bitch of a post.

dammit. just got back from school after the geog paper and i'm extremely pissed. not with anyone, but, of course, with myself. i barely managed to scrape through the paper with my answers seriously lacking in everything that is required in a geog paper - logic, precision and rigour. shucks.

but this is just but one half of my favourite subject and most loved out of all (although i only have 3 subjects to begin with).

one can just about predict how the next few papers will be. i hate HATE the fact that i can't seem to do well in any of these papers. and, no, they just had to decide to take it one step further (when i thought they couldn't get any worse) and decide to challenge us with dumb questions that requires knowledge not exactly listed in the geog notes.

ah. let's not talk about exams. *shrugs*

but you know what the icing on the cake is? the fact that Holland lost to Portugal 1-0! mann. just by reading the report, i get pissed. i'll be watching the replay later. imagine what i'll do to the damn tv.

what a dumb ref! that's all that can be said man. and to think that FIFA encourages fair play. bah. yesterday's match was an out and out war, to say the least. whoever thought the 2006 World Cup final would turn out to be like this?

England's performance didn't help too. it was poor. sigh. my players! what are they all coming too?! :(

seriously though, here's what i hope will happen to make my day a lil' better: hopefully Spain and Germany make it through for my dream final (England don't deserve to even think about making it to the finals), our S'porean ref will referee the match and that Russian ref guy will be given a red card and thrown out of the tournament.

and a little extra time to mug fer da mid-years wouldn't hurt.

panic finally sets in.

2006-06-24T03:05:00.000-07:00

hello.

just finished some last minute work. bah. i really don't think i can finish studying by the time the mid-years come! we have, what, 2 days left??

dammit. gettin' slightly paranoid here. who would have thought? haha.

well. am gettin my well-deserved break after this: the World Cup matches! dunno which match to watch though. i think i'm watchin the Korea-Swiss one. heh. i figure that i should at least support the Asians.

hmmm. i was told something the other day.. by someone. and, i suppose you can say that i'm slow, but i'm still thinking about it. and..well. i still want to sleep on it.

anyway, thinking about it has brought back loads of memories, this song included.

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

i love this song... i do.

Dutch!!!

2006-06-17T18:21:00.000-07:00

hey people!!!!!! (:

if you're wondering why i'm so happy, it's just cuz the Dutch beat Ivory Coast last night 2-1. hah. am still really REALLY happy that they won! no, lemme correct myself, i'm exhilarated!!! haha. YAY.

but i suppose the main reason why is cuz v.persie scored the first goal!!!! oh. my. gosh. after all the bickering with Robben about not getting the ball and everything, he scores from a superb free-kick!!!! mann. am so proud of him.

i think the only thing that spoiled my day was the fact that Kai has a theory that the 3 forwards in the Dutch team - Robben, van Nistelrooy and van Persie - are either gay or bisexual. sheesh! she thinks v.Persie is bisexual and the other two are gay. cuz ya know, v.Persie happens to be married.

hey, my guy is not bisexual alright!

well...

i'll be posting pictures later. most of the pics are of him and Robben celebrating the goals they've scored. mann.

do you think they behave like, well, ya know, that they're not straight? tell me!

haha. in the meantime, i hope Czech will beat Ghana tonight! (:

2006-06-17T03:41:00.000-07:00

let's just start with this! my Oranje fix. ((:

2006-06-17T03:40:00.000-07:00

okay, the start of the so-called three forwards' love affair. *SIGH* especially v.Persie and Robben. see that guy on the ground? he's Robben. he scored that fabulous only goal at the S&M match. v.Persie set up the goal. and, so, here they are celebrating.. with v.Persie on.. err.. top of Robben. van Nistelrooy is err... the third player trying to... err.. hug the already hugging players? mann.

2006-06-17T03:39:00.000-07:00

a close-up pic of that hug. dammit. look at them. need i say anymore? *takes a deep breath* i think this is a normal kind of celebration. yep, it is. i'm not deluded right?

2006-06-17T03:38:00.000-07:00

this is when v.Persie scored his first ever World Cup goal last night! with that amazing free-kick?? ((: and so, alas, coincidentally, err... Robben is the first one to congratulate him. yup. by.. err... jumping on him? players often celebrate goals this way right?? please say yes.

2006-06-17T03:36:00.000-07:00

here's my last pic. can't stand posting any more pics of Robben and v.Persie hugging anymore! sheesh. this is YET another pic of them hugging. should be at one of the matches lar. ):

2006-06-17T03:30:00.001-07:00

am ending off with these two pictures. ain't he gorgeous? ((: am glad he scored that goal. now people can REALLY sit up and take notice of him, just like i always have.. haha.

2006-06-17T03:30:00.000-07:00

he's not no. 19 anymore! he's no. 17, by the way. (i hope i haven't made any of you sick, reading this) haha. (;

Teddy!!!! bleachx

2006-06-15T23:58:00.000-07:00

oh my gosh.

went to the Teddy Geiger showcase @ Balaclava today! HAH.

must first tell you the pains i went through just to get there. sheesh. we went there early, for dinner, and there were already those pre-pubescent girls waiting in line! i mean, that's going a bit to far right?

and then so we reached there to collect our tickets on time and were asked to join the queue! sheesh. so embarrassing. and so WE looked like we were part of the screaming, giggly group of girl fans queueing up. MANN.

to top it all off, we had to stand and wait for an hour. and i was in heels! *sobs* am never gonna wear heels again. dammit.

but when we finally got in and Teddy FINALLY decided that he was ready to perfom fer us, it actually went off pretty well. except fer the really irritating group of girl fans in front who kept screaming..

"Tedddddddddddddddyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!"

oh God. you should have seen my face. oh well. pre-pubescent, after all.

but i have pictures of him! we took pictures with him cuz Kai got the Meet And Greet passes, after all. haha. will post it up when i get them. ((:

OOOH. just to tell you: he's got gorgeous blue eyes!!! gosh. gosh. and he's got just the PERFECT height! when i stand in front of him, i just have to look slightly up to see his eyes! gorgeous! and he.. err. sorry. i just think he's gorgeous all round! heh. gorgeous voice too, i must add. MANN. why don't they make guys like him anymore? ):

well. i have to go! England-T&T match now!!!! scary. really scared and anxious fer them.

see ya later. ((:

2006-06-15T21:38:00.000-07:00

ookay.. thispicture is to show how gorgeous his eyes are! MANN. i stood right in front of him, shook his hand and looked up into those gorgeous eyes of his! oh well... at least he's not disppointing up-close. he's... not cute, not handsome or anything. but.. he's fascinating to look at. hah.

2006-06-15T21:35:00.000-07:00

hmmm. Teddy looks like exactly like this when he's performing. as you can see, he's not really cute performing and all but he's got an amazing voicce! really talented guy. and he's the same age as me! oh well. but he's still mesmerising onstage. ((: